it's you and me, that's my whole world<3

eat (y/n's version)

so it's like 21:31pm rn, and literally SO TIRED RN. I'm seeing the eras tour movie tomorrow🫶🏾 im so excited it doesn't make sense. anyway.

(completed at 5am the next day<3)

today's post is gonna be a little angsty, so enjoy🤷‍♀️
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tw: ED references.
y/n age: any age you think is appropriate...
i love you so much, and I'm free to talk if you need<3 (if I'm not on character ai venting to taylor-)
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It was a Friday afternoon and Taylor had just come back home from a date with Joe. I recognised the keys in the door on instinct and leapt from my seat and waited for her to come through the door. It took a moment or two, but Taylor stepped in and was greeted by me in my baby blue silk pyjamas and my 'HI MOMMA!' smile, which she found adorable. She cupped my face and beamed "HI, Y/N<33"
then kissed my forehead and continued into her bedroom.

She set her bags down in the far corner of the room, slipped into her matching silk, navy blue pyjamas, then she sprawled out on her bed and patted a spot next to her, indicating for me to lay beside her.

"c'mere, baby." She said softly, patting the bed. I laid myself down beside her and she wrapped her arm around my torso and kissed my head, lovingly. "hey, kid.." She had such a friendly smile in general.

"What did you do while I was out with Joe? She asked with a gentle gaze.
I looked back at her, and her electric blue eyes are so so shiny.

"I mainly slept, momma," I yawned, "I mean, it's 5am.." I looked over at her.

Taylor ruffled my hair and kissed the top of my head. "You're right, angel." She paused for a minute before asking. "Hey, y/n/n, I left before dinner, what did you eat?"

I literally didn't answer.

"y/n?" Taylor shook my shoulder slightly. "y/n/nnnnnn," she whispered, sweetly dragging out my name. "What did you eat, honey?"

It took her less than a minute to realise, I hadn't eaten. Maybe not since dinner yesterday or worse. And that scared her. That scared her a lot.

"y/n." firmly, Taylor spoke. "You haven't eaten, have you?"

I stayed quiet and closed my eyes while I felt as though I was sinking into the bed mattress I was laying on. "m-mom, everything's fine, I.."

She pulled me into a tight hug and didn't let me go. "You need to eat." She said it with a stiffness as if she were stifling tears. "Do you understand, angel?"

"But, momma. I'm fine, I've eaten. I have. Everything's okay. You don't have to worry," I hugged her reassuringly and felt terrible for lying to her.

"y/n/n, it's not okay." Taylor complained and her voice broke a little which brought tears to my eyes. "Please, please. Please let's go and eat something? okay?"
I assume that was supposed to come out firmly and authoritatively, but it was produced as more of a gentle squeak.

"Mom, I don't need to eat. I've already eaten. I don't need food, right now." I tried my best to convince her but she just wouldn't listen.

"Angel, you'll make yourself sick and unwell, if you don't eat." Taylor said weakly, trying not to cry. She turned away and wiped away a few tears and left the room silent. Then she asked;

"How long have you been starving yourself?"

And something in my stomach tied a knot, and all of a sudden, I felt awfully sick. I didn't want to tell her. I couldn't bare to tell her. I didn't want to see her crying. Especially not over me.

"y/n, honey??"

"weeks." It just slipped out. It was involuntary, but it slipped out and now she knew.

"y-y/n..." she tried to speak but suddenly her throat was very dry, she went extremely pale, she could hear her own distressed breathing and she could hear her own heart breaking. She couldn't even string a full sentence together.

"mom, I'm so sorry, I- I- never meant, I-.." I trailed off and became a little lightheaded for a fraction of a second.

"y/n... why didn't you tell me?" Tay asked, caressing my shoulder softly with her fingers. "w-why didn't you, l-let me know, angel?"

She paused, before continuing, "Talk to me, sweetie." She pulled me into a warm embrace and gently stroked my back. "Darling, please...You're scaring me. C-can we just talk about this, y/n. You can't do this, it's so unhealthy for you.."

I let out a shaky sigh. "m-momma i'm so sorry." I whimpered into her chest as she pulled me even closer.

"shh, baby, it's okay, I've got you. You don't have to feel alone in this anymore. Do you understand me, y/n/n?" She stroked the back of my head and ran her fingers through my hair. "y/n?"

My soft snoring came into earshot, and small chuckle escaped Tay's lips. "i love you to the moon and to saturn, baby." She whispered, slightly tearfully. "i love you, i love you, i love you<3"

I stayed in her arms all night and slept cuddled into her chest all night.
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