TW: Depression, Suicide, Self harm
I am so tired of feeling
Like I can't breathe.
I hate barely managing to drag
My feet on the ground beneath.
I need to do it to survive
I told myself again.
But I can't wait for the day,
The day when my life ends.
Then I thought to myself,
I can make it nearer.
Relief from all the pain,
Yes, I think I've found the answer.
So I started to self-harm,
Cuts and bruises on my body.
Because if I count all who care
The sum totals to nobody.
At least that's what I thought,
But I was wrong again.
My father did care,
And was grieved to see me in my pain.
He told me that he would
Have rather himself died
Then see me hurt myself
And that he'd be by my side.
And thanks to him it was
Okay for a little while.
I love you so much dad,
Thanks for taking the extra mile.
But eventually my pain
Caught me again.
I guess I'm just too weak
Those who survive are the stronger men.
I craved the sting of the blade
As it scraped across my skin
But I guess in this battle,
You can never really win.
So I decided that
Let's nip this in the bud.
I can't take this anymore,
Always falling into the mud.
I tried to deny it but
I guess this world is not for me.
Since I was younger I knew
I'm the broken toy in the factory.
These fake smiles have
Corroded my personality.
Like rust eats at iron,
I guess it all just got to me.
So I thought that I might
End all that is left of me.
After all, I'm just a shell
Of my old personality.
But then I realized something else,
Which gave me more strength.
I guess I will go on,
I'll live my life to the very end.
Through willpower
And determination,
You can overcome
Your situation.
So I'll just keep going,
Living my live to the fullest.
I'll try to work hard,
And I'll showcase my best.
So when that day comes,
I'll leave with no regrets.
I'll mark people's lives with joy,
I'll try never to forget.
