His Abused Muted Mate

Chapter 5

Sapphira       <3

(Sapphira)

I inwardly sigh as I slump down in my chair, alone once more. I know I should be used to this by now, but it doesn't that I can't still crave a friend. I just wish I could talk to someone, let somebody know about what was happening in my life. I close my eyes for a moment, thinking of Tom once more. If only he was here, if only I could still talk to him. I pause, no. I can't want to see him again, he left me. He left when he knew exactly what was going on. He left when he knew I was carrying his child - I should not want to talk to that asshole again.

With a frown I shake away those thoughts and pull out my maths book, determined to get through my homework now so it's one less thing to take about when I get home. I open my textbook and start reading the first question, trying to make sense of it. Eventually, after reading over the question a few times I realise what it's asking and begin writing down the answer, hurrying onto the next question.

It isn't until I get down to tenth, and final, question when I get the felling that someones watching me. I don't know how I know - I guess it's the cliched sixth sense that's always talked about. I turn around and find myself looking straight at a gorgeous guy across the cafeteria. My instincts seem to have proven me right because he's staring straight at me, ignoring his friends around him. I realise that I'm staring and quickly flick my gaze back to the textbook in front of me. 

I reread the question and try to answer it, but I can't help thinking about the boy across the cafeteria. His gaze seemed intense, but not in a bad way. It was almost as if he was slightly shy about being caught looking at me, but why? It was probably more likely that he was looking at some other table, at some gorgeous girl, and I just mistook his gaze for being on me.

I'm abruptly brought out of my thoughts by a soft cough behind me. I swirl around and find myself staring at the boy from across the cafeteria. He gives a small smile and waves his hand slightly. I have to force myself to keep my face blank and bored, can't have father thinking that I'm making friends and betraying his trust.

"Hi," I feel my heart skip a beat at his voice. It's got just the slightest hint of huskiness to it, and it's sounds like a voice that is often used in a joking way. "Can I sit here?"

I blink twice slowly, trying to register what he said. He wants to sit with me? I can't believe that this gorgeous green eyed guy wants to sit with a silent loner like myself. His smile starts to fade and I feel disappointment - that's a smile that I want to keep looking at.

"It's ok if you don't want me to, I don't want to make you feel obligated at all." He sighs and starts to turn, and before I can stop myself I reach out and grab his arm. He turns back to me and I feel my stomach flop as he looks at me, his eyes seem to be filled with hope.

I give a small smile and gesture to the seat next to me. His face breaks in a grin that has elephants roaring through my stomach as he drops down next to me. He gives another smile before looking down at the maths book set out in front of me. His face creases in a frown as he looks back at me.

"You're working on maths? At lunch?" I nod my head, unsure of myself. "What about eating? What about friends?"

I flinch slightly as he rushes through his words. The disbelieving tone in his voice causes me discomfort and I have to bight my lip to stop from blurting out an answer. Instead I give a small shake of my head and I slight shake of my shoulders. His frown widens before he suddenly jumps up and strides off, back towards his table. I watch him as he reaches the table before turning away, facing back to my maths.

I know that I should be glad that he left and that I've stuck to dad's wishes, but I can't help but wish that he would come back and sit with me. I don't understand, but for some reason it feels as if part of me left with him - a part of me that will only come back when he comes back. I sigh and try to focus once more on my maths. But, it soon becomes an impossible task when my eyes blur with tears and I feel one trickle down my cheek. I wipe at it, angry at myself for letting me get so upset about one boy that I don't know. I sniff and wipe away another tear angrily, trying to force myself to stop crying.

"Are you alright?" I jump and spin around, coming face to face with a pair of gorgeous green eyes, seemingly laced with worry. He gives a small smile and indicates the tray he's holding. "I got you something to eat."

I widen my eyes and shake my head, wiping away another stray tear. He tries to place it down in front of me, but I push it gently. I can't let this guy buy me food, dad would be appalled if he knew. After all, what he says is right. I'm too fat to be able to have lunch, especially once I start getting a bump from the baby.

"Please? Please eat it, for me?" I look at him and I feel my arguments disappearing as I look at his face.

Eventually I nod and he places the tray down, revealing a carton of strawberry milk and a small plate of pasta with a red sauce on top. With a small smile I look at the food, trying to remind myself of the valid arguments that father always reminds me of. 

You're fat, you can't afford to let yourself get wider. If you eat anything more you'll probably drop dead. Not that this world would be any worse without you.

I feel the tears come to my eyes again as dad's voice rings through my head and I push the tray away, refusing to let father be proven correct. I look away from the boy sitting beside me and stare at my hands. I can feel the tears running down my face and clench my fists, focusing on the pain as my nails break through the skin. I focus as the pain passes my hands and rushes through my arms - I never understood how people can think that the smaller the injury the more pain. I can assure everybody that this pain right now is nothing compared to what I've been through in the past.

I suddenly see, through blurred vision, warm hands wrapping around mine. As soon as our hands touch I feel a spark and warmth seems to rush through my body. I glance back up and see the blurred face of the boy next to me. I give a weak smile before pulling my hands away from his - it's bad enough that I'm letting him sit with me.

"Did I do something to upset you?" I blink again, wiping away the stray tears on my face. As his face comes back into view I feel a pain in my chest at the dejected and sorrowful look on his face. I shake my head again and point at myself, trying to tell him that it was just something I was thinking about. "You?"

I nod and he frowns slightly before shrugging it and smiling at again. I feel tingles rush through me as I see his smile directed at me. I can't help but feel a bit happy to think that someone like him would point his smile towards someone like me.

"I'm James, by the way." James, the perfect name for a perfect guy. "Could you write you're name down for me?"

I go to pick up my pen and pause, unsure whether I should tell him my name. I still can't believe just how willingly I've disobeyed my father for a guy I haven't known. Maybe I shouldn't tell him my name. Instead, I should be telling him to go away and leave me alone. I start to prepare myself to motion for him to leave when my hand moves forward and scribbles Sapphira in the corner of my textbook.

"Sapphira?" I nod quickly and he smiles, leaning forward slightly. "Hi, Sapphira."

He grins at me, and leans against the table looking at me. I stare back at him for a moment, mesmerized by the sheer gorgeousness of James' eyes. As I lean closer and look more deeply, I notice that his eyes aren't just a simple shade of green. They're flecked with brown, and gold and seem to have a slight blue shimmer occasionally. 

I notice that we've both been slowly leaning towards each other and I pause, appalled at how I've been disobeying dad. I quickly turn away, grab my bag and books and jump up from the table. Without another glance at the strange boy behind me, I dash out of the cafeteria and walk towards my next class.

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