[COMPLETE] Gone With The Wind~ A Ponyboy x Johnny fanfic

~Chapter 2~

Most of this chapter is from the original book, I did not write most of this. This chapter starts in the middle of chapter five.

Johnny was resting against the wall and I was asleep on his shoulder. "Johnny?" I yawned. "You awake?" I was warm and sleepy next to him. I had just realized that my head was in his lap. I flushed and shot up. Johnny looked starteled.

"Y-yeah," he said quietly.

"We ain't gonna cry no more, are we?" I felt my ears burning.

"Nope. We're all cried out now. We're gettin' used to the idea. We're gonna be okay now." He looked away from me, blushing.

For the first time since Dally and I had sat down behind those girls at the Nightly Double, I relaxed. We could take whatever was coming now.

THE NEXT FOUR or five days were the longest yet also the shortest days I've ever spent in my life. We killed time by reading Gone with the Wind and playing poker. I realised that I spend most of the time just looking at hem, while he was looking away. Johnny sure did like that book, although he didn't know anything about the Civil War and even less about plantations, and I had to explain a lot of it to him. It amazed me how Johnny could get more meaning out of some of the stuff in there than I could--- I was supposed to be the deep one. Johnny had failed a year in school and never made good grades--- he couldn't grasp anything that was shoved at him too fast, and I guess his teachers thought he was just plain dumb. But he wasn't. He was just a little slow to get things, and he liked to explore things once he did get them. He was especially stuck on the Southern gentlemen--- impressed with their manners and charm.

"I bet they were cool ol' guys," he said, his eyes glowing, after I had read the part about them riding into sure death because they were gallant. "They remind me of Dally." "Dally?" I said, startled. "Shoot, he ain't got any more manners than I do. And you saw how he treated those girls the other night. Soda's more like them Southern boys." "Yeah... I guess not."

Johnny and I never went to the front of the church. You could see the front from the road, and sometimes farm kids rode their horses by on their way to the store. So we stayed in the very back, usually sitting on the steps and looking across the valley. We could see for miles; see the ribbon of highway and the small dots that were houses and cars. We couldn't watch the sunset, since the back faced east, but I loved to look at the colors of the fields and just plain sitting next to him.

Johnny had come out as gay two months ago.

I didn't know what 'gay' was back then, but my brother Sodapop explaned it to me; He said "Being gay is when you like the same gender that you are. You know how Darry has had girlfriends? Darry is strength, he likes the opposite gender. You know how Steve is my Boyfriend, but both uf us have had girlfriends before? Both of us are Bisexual, bi for short. I like both girls and boys. Johnny is gay, he is a boy and he likes boys."

Since then I have been questioning my sexuality every day.

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-Thanks for reading! Sorry about the short upload tho 😔

-Hazel <3