A Shadowed Life Of A Malfoy

Finally, happiness

I started towards the hallway when...

Sirius.

I saw him down the hall, heading toward me.

No, not now... not... not now, please…

I hid in the girl's bathrooms so he wouldn't see me. My heart melted in my chest as I bent over the sink. I was sweating from the stress. I took my tie off so I could undo the buttons of my shirt so I could get more air. This was a disaster. If Sirius came in, I didn't know what I'd do.

I wiped her brow with my hand and took another deep breath.

"Astoria?" Oh crap. 

I turned around with a start as she heard his voice... his oh, his voice. I turned to see Sirius, his face filled with concern.

No, no, no...

My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. "What... what are you doing here, Sirius?"

Sirius took a deep breath. "I... I don't know."

I looked at him with confusion. "So... you just happen to find yourself in the girl's bathroom?"

Sirius thought about his answer for a moment. "No, I... I came to see you. Well... I came to see if you were okay. I..."

That's sweet of him... but I can't talk to him like this.

"We shouldn't be talking," I said leaning against the sinks once more, looking at the bruises on my neck in the mirror. Remembering what my brother had done. 

"Yes... yes, you're right."

What... What am I doing... I need to leave. I can't have him see me like this. He'll worry... more than he already is.

"Well, I'll... I'll see you..." I started to leave before...

"Astoria…"

I stopped in my tracks as I heard Sirius speak my name in that low, husky tone of his. I turned around to face him, my heart starting to flutter once more. "Yes... Sirius?" I cleared her throat and tried to keep it together. He stayed quiet for a moment "If... well, if that's all... that you wanted... I..." 

I can't... I can't leave... not yet.

"I... well... actually." I cleared my throat again before taking a step toward Sirius. "I can't leave just yet, can I?" My voice was soft and quiet, my eyes looking at him intently.

I need to speak to him... please... Please let me speak to him.

Suddenly I was overcome with pure hatred for my family. I didn't care about them or my brother.* "fuck it, If I'm going to be wrong for doing something, I want to be wrong for doing this" I kissed him. 

I felt my mind go blank as I kissed him... as I felt his lips against my own. I felt his fingers running through her hair and his body pressing up against hers. I felt him pull me closer and I couldn't help but pull him closer in return. I didn't care about anything at that moment... I didn't care about anything that my parents could think or say. I only cared about him. About how he made me feel. About how happy he made me.

This... this is right... this…

My head was spinning, my heart was racing, and my breath catching in my throat. This was... no... this was amazing. Sirius... the boy I had thought she hated... the boy I had tried to avoid... he was here... and we were kissing...

I felt him pull her even closer as their lips pressed together. I kissed him back... and my mind went completely blank. I was so completely absorbed in the kiss. My heart was soaring... I felt like she was in a dream.