Even If It Is Wrong And Forbidden

Engage

I sipped my ordered fruitshake while Isaiah is staring at me like he knew I had sex last night. Naningkit lalo ang kanyang mga mata noong nag iwas ako ng tingin sa kanya.

"I do not want to accuse you of something really bad, but you're glowing like you had sex last night."

Muntik ko ng maibuga ang iniinom ko pagkasabi niya doon. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya noong makita ang naging reaksyon ko. He looked at me accusingly.

"You had sex last night!"

Klaro na niya sa akin. Inirapan ko siya bago ngumisi.

"I did. And it was mindblowing. You should try it with someone too next time."

Walang hiya kong pag amin. Lalong nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata sa bulgar kong sagot.

"Oh my God. Please tell me it was not with the person I am thinking right now. If he is, Corrine, then you are in great danger. We both know he is no good to you. The last time he hurt you, you almost died!"

Napalitan ng galit ang kanina ay gulat niyang reaksyon. I sighed heavily. Not willing to admit, but somehow, his words cut through me. He made sense.

"I am sorry. Naging marupok nanaman ako."

Malungkot kong pag amin sa kanya. He sighed heavily too and reached for my hand.

"Please don't repeat it again. Do not go back to that shithole, Corrine. You can have sex with anyone, just not your brother."

Napangiwi siya sa huling salita. Na parang nakakadiring banggitin iyon. Napakagat ako ng labi bago malungkot na tumango.

"I know. And I am sorry. It was unintentional. He just showed up and kissed me!"

Depensa ko. Napataas ang kanyang kilay.

"And you kissed him back!"

Sita niya sa akin. Napanguso ako sabay iling kahit na totoo naman ang kanyang sinabi.

"We both know he is not my real brother though".

Bigla ay depensa ko kahit kanina ay sumang ayon ako sa kanya.

"Real or not, in the eyes of so many people, you are still siblings."

Giit niya. Napayuko ako at malungkot na tumango. A lone tear escaped my eye. He wiped it with his thumb.

"Corrine, I am your bestfriend and I love you. I don't want you get hurt again by the same person, with the same reason. Iwasan mo na siya."

Napabuga ako ng hangin sa katawan habang malalim na napaisip. Can i really just shrug it off? What happened to us last night was something I can just forget. He kissed me in every part of me like he owned me.

"Sari."

A barritone voice made me go back to reality. Sabay kaming napatingin sa nagsalita. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko pagkakita sa taong hindi ko inaasahang makita ngayon.

"Let's talk".

Mariin niyang dugtong habang nakatingin sa kamay naming magkalapat ni Isaiah.

"Corrine."

May pagbabanta sa boses ni Isaiah. Sage looked at him annoyingly.

"I need to talk to her."

Galit na salita niya sa aking kaibigan.

"You stay the fuck away from her! Man, you are engaged!"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa narinig mula kay Isaiah. Napatingin ako kay Sage. Galit na nakatitig ito kay Isaiah. Ni hindi man lang natinag sa narinig.

"Sari."

He looked at me then, waiting for me to come with him, not minding what Isaiah had just bluntly accused him of. I sighed again and look at him in the eyes.

"I'm sorry kuya Sage, but i do not want to talk to you. What happened last night was  fun. I was bored when you came. I let you fuck me. It was great but that's just that. Nothing else. Why don't you just go back to your fiancee? I am sure she is already looking for you."

Walang emosyon kong litanya bago hinawakan si Isaiah.

"Let's go Isaiah."

Bago pa man kami makaalis ay nahawakan na ako sa kamay ni Sage.

"It was not just sex for me. You know it was more than that."

Magkasalubong ang kilay niya habang titig na titig sa akin. I tried to free myself from his grip.

"Well too bad, it was, for me. It was fun fucking you. Now let me go".

Malamig kong saad. His jaw clenched in restrained anger.

"You're mine Sari. I've stopped myself for so many years, now that I finally learned that we're not really related, no one can stop me from taking you back."

Galit niyang sagot. Nanlilisik ang mga mata ko bago siya tinuro turo sa dibdib.

"Well fuck you! You lost me years ago! You idiot! You think you can just come back and claim me like you did not hurt me at all? Damn it Sage! You came back engaged with someone else! At ngayon babalikan mo ako at sasabihin iyan sa akin? Damn you. Just damn you!"

Galit na galit kong saad. Tinimpi kong huwag magsisigaw dahil may nakakapansin na sa amin. Hinablot ko ang bag na nasa upuan at hinawakan sa kamay si Isaiah.

"Huwag na huwag ka ng magpapakita pa sa akin please lang. Sex lang iyon kagabi. Tapos na tayo."

Taas noo kong dugtong. Nanghihina akong napahawak kay Isaiah pagkarating namin ng kanyang sasakyan. He held me in his arms and kissed my forehead.

"You'll be okay. You're a strong woman".

Pagpapatahan niya sa akin. I closed my eyes and nodded. A sudden flashback of what happened filled my mind.

"Every part of you, is mine, Sari."

Sage kissed me slowly. He pinched my breast before sucking it with his mouth. Napaliyad ako at napasabunot sa kanya.

"Sage. Ahhh."

Mahabang ungol ko. Lalo akong nabaliw noong bumaba ang halik niya patungo sa aking tiyan. His breathing tickled me especially when he reached and fucked my core with his skillful tongue.

"Sage. Sage. Sage."

Impit kong tawag sa kanya. He silenced me with his hand while looking at me lustfully. He continued sucking my core until I felt my released.

"CORRINE!"

Ibinalik ako sa riyalidad ni Isaiah. He held my cheeks and stared me me worriedly.

"He is engaged. Hindi siya karapat dapat sa'yo. You're both forbidden. It is wrong anf it is forbidden. Do you understand?"

He is engage. He is engage.

Iyon ang paulit ulit na nagreplay sa aking isipan bago malungkot na tumango sa kanya. Tama siya. He is engage and no matter what we do, magkapatid man kami o hindi ni Sage. We both are not good with each other dahil sa mata ng iba, mali kami para sa isa't isa.