TOXIC DATE

MEMORIES

The most beautiful things in life are not things. They're people and places and memories and pictures. They're feelings and moments and smiles and laughter.

IRA'S POV

To get instigated by some mere words and notions of Rumi was not my intention behind leaving this place. Instead to give what Asher really deserves was what I chose.

I wasn't selfish and how can we be selfish to the one we love. Asher has always been selfless when it came to his side. He never complained about a single thing even when this marriage wasn't even a thing for us. It was like we two distant opposite people came in eachother's life and made it as beautiful as we could.

And when have we gotten to choose the people we want in our lives? Everyone who came close to us, each relation we make on this planet was his plan. A baby born in this strange materialistic world never knows about the truth and false, family and strangers. It's when he starts growing he comes in contact with these relations, whether father, mother, brother, sister. Everything is decided. We don't choose our parents neither the place we are born in.

And that's how I didn't chose Asher or he found me. We just happened. Neither him nor I knew that what would happen ahead of time. A fake contractual marriage can also bloom the flowers of love, I never knew this. How could I ? Neither did he?

I took out the note pad and started writing the letter, which will be the only proof for him to know that I am leaving him for his happiness and am not coming back again.

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Asher I love you and probably you are the only guy I will love whole my life. But for your sake I have to leave you, I have to put an end to this "US". I am not acting "Mahan" (great) but maybe I am. I only know that I love you and love is not selfish Asher. I could have been selfish all my life to receive love my share of love, but my love for you isn't selfish. And when I know that I can't give you happiness of being a father then I can't even snatch that one percent of chance of seeing you being a dad of someone.

Asher my sacrifice isn't because my love is less in comparison to yours. Instead my love for you never knew it's bound, I can die for you Asher, and I can sacrifice my happiness a thousands of time without even looking for my own self.

Asher you have been the strongest pillar in my life, loving me, supporting me and caring for me. Life gave me you, and the more I love you in the same way I respect you. I respect you so much Asher that despite being so different to you, you never made me feel low, you might have teased me at time but never have your intentions been impure. The time when Amvi was there, i thought you would have divorced me, there was a silent war going on between you and me. But no! You didn't leave my hand..you never asked me to divorce you.

Asher since the time I know you, all I knew was you are confused. I mean you didn't even select your own major at college, you didn't choose staying here and handling this business, you didn't choose me but inspite all this you managed everything so well. Asher I don't know why people don't talk about men, their sacrifices, their work, and the hardwork they do. With that smile on their face. Asher you have been a hero, and that's why men are heroes for their family. Asher you have been the source of my strength and love always, and will forever be. I am not with you ..you are still with me.

Asher from the time I knew you, to the time I have spent with you. I know I could have never gotten anyone better than you. You were different, you spoke less, sounded rude to me at times. But you know I always felt that your eyes spoke even when your lips never dared.

Asher at times when you didn't speak, i use to read your eyes. Asher I believe in the magic of eyes. Because it's always in the eyes. Remember we had so few conversations back then, mostly silent. You used to sing and play guitar and I could just listen but never spoke to you about how much of a good singer you are! until now when things have been different
You know right?! But I loved the way your tongue rolled while calling out my name and uff, I felt a thousands of goosebumps on my skin. Asher in those initial days I never knew that we were meant to be.