The Twisted Wonderland.

|6| Dress the part

Edited

Alice's P.O.V
Excuse me, a ball?! Are they serious about that? Who has balls anymore that is just unusual. Then I started to remember where I am unusual equals normal and normal equals unusual. Maybe one day I'll understand. Well partially understand they have judgmental flowers with drug addicted insects and animals. And very perverted rabbits.

It was so funny though when Jake punched him. Then he scurried away. My heart fluttered when I saw jealousy in his eyes. Like he wanted no one else to touch me. He is so breathtaking.
Everything is happening so fast we were about to have an intimate kiss several times.

This would have never have happened in England. Thinking about it now it's crazy how I got here. I wonder if anyone questioned how I got here to. And sure I really miss home but does anyone know if I'm gone? I wonder how long the time difference is from here. How long have I been gone?

A second a minute an a hour? A week a month? A year possibly?

Chill Alice you haven't even been here for a week. But I still can't help feel homesick and sadness. Maybe England would be better off without you. What have I done for the English society? Oh yeah ruin it every chance I got I was a menace a disgrace to my family. Every time we left a social gathering you could see the embarrassment and disappointment in my mother's eyes.
Like at the Dukes wedding we were in the brides to be chamber waiting to surprise her with gifts and words of encouragement. She didn't show up so everyone went to search for her. They left me alone and I had to use the bathroom and when I went in she was crying.

She for I have no idea why to this day asked my advice. She asked if she should get married. I don't know why, but I decided to give my advice. I told her," If you have any doubt on marrying him then you aren't truly in love."

She nodded, wiped away her tears and asked, "What...what...sh...should I do?".

My dumb 14 year old self shrugged and said,

"Well if you want to marry him and be tied down, cleaning cooking and making love to the same old guy every night do it."

"Or you could run away and travel the world and find a man you will have no doubts about."

She nodded again with no more tears or stuttering she stood up proudly and said

"Thank you, I shouldn't have doubts.", and she ran off that was the last time I saw her. Or the last time anyone in England saw her. She did end up traveling and she became an author. The not-bride-to-be wrote many women self-empowering books.

Which at the time I did the right thing but I just caused a domino effect. Since she didn't get married to the duke he became an angry bitter man. Still to this day I have no idea how but my mom and I were supposed to get paid a great deal of money if he got married.

My mom needed that money to keep paying for my school finances. Which of course I didn't care about. I never cared about anyone but myself. So my mom had to marry a man she despises. She sucked up her pride for me, but I still treated her horribly. My mother always criticized women that married men for money. I made her become that I made her a hypocrite.

That wasn't all that happened because of me and the runaway bride. The duke like said earlier became a horrid bitter hostile jerk. He had many mistresses EACH night. Like five women each night. I remember we had to stay a week in in my mother's friend's house next to the duke. So I would see multiple women run out his house each night.
Shredded clothes and bruises and cuts. Never to be seen again. Some were lucky enough to stay the actual whole night. But see none of those women would have gone through that, my mother will still be happy, and the duke would be kind again if he had only gotten married.

I started to choke up thinking of all my mistakes. Regretting my selfish choices. Why couldn't I have just gone to finishing school like the others? But I had to always ditch and cut classes. They could have straightened me up a little. Then I could have been married living a comfortable life. But do I want to? I'm curious as if this all happened for a reason like my soul mate might be here.

Maybe I should stay here. Bloody hell I don't even belong here. Maybe if Jake could feel the attraction and we were older and fell in love... No Alice he doesn't feel that way snap out of it.
I started hiccupping, I remember being so annoyed when girls would self-pity themselves like this now I understand.

I'm such a horrible selfish being. I never tried to understand I just criticized all their crying and choices.
Jake came out ready to take us to get ready and startled me out of my thoughts. I excused myself and walked outside because I didn't want him to see me cry. As soon as the door closes and the fresh cold wind hit my face pools of tears streamed down my face.

No one wants me anywhere and no one ever will. I just fell and broke. When I heard the door unlock I ran out of its path. I hid behind a big tree on the side of the house. When I peeked over it was Jake looking around. Then he called out,

"Alice! Where are you?"

My heart literally did a cartwheel! He was looking for me?! A pathetic ugly loser with no place in life.

Then my doubts spoke you really think he is looking for you because he likes you? He barely knows you. I tried to push those doubts away but I couldn't it was so hard. He doesn't care for you Alice! I cried so much more and i guess he heard and he came. He looked at me with sympathetic eyes. I couldn't take the silence and jakes pity so I stood up and said,

"You found me."

~~~~CHAPTER NOT OVER~~~~~~~

Jakes P.O.V
"You found me." Is all she says? I look all over and I come back find her crying and that's what she says. Then my subconscious hits me and say AT LEAST SHES TALKING YOUR JUST STARING. Then I think about it yea I'm getting a little creepy just staring at her. But how can you not I mean look at her.
Even when she has big puffy eyes they are still beautiful. And her lips just look so full and desperate for me to kiss. STOP IT JAKE! I have to remember she was just crying she needs comfort....and someone to kiss... Seriously I need help.
I walk towards her and she looks at me nervously and bites her perfect bottom lip. Gr she is so pretty even when she looks so innocent. Once we are only inches apart I swoop her up bridal style. And walk her towards this log to sit on. I step on a stick and it cracks startling Alice she tugs at my hair.
I swear this girl is so attractive. But I just sit on the log with her on my lap. She turns around to take in the beautiful view. I couldn't see it but that's alright because I have a way better view.

Of her beautiful locks of course it's weird though I really do need to get to know her better.

"Alice look at me." She turns around and wipes her eyes.

"Now tell me what caused you to run and cry." Part of me wanted to truly know. The other part was if she said she wanted to leave or if I caused it. I don't know why, but if she leaves I don't know what I'd do.