Poe spent the remainder of the daylight hours teaching you the basics of the X-wing, at the end of the night, you were flying on your own, and Poe flew beside you. You smiled widely, this being the first time you had actually flown in over a week. Poe flew next to you and waved, then he took off in another direction, you turned and followed him your smile grew wide as you watched his ship in front of you dip and swerve. You found your smile fading as you watched it, your mind taking you back to the day you were attacked, your burn began to sting and your thumb drifted over the controls to the firing mechanism as you watched his ship level off, but you stopped yourself.
Something within you made you stop. It wasn't just that you would compromise the mission, and possibly be killed, it was something deep within you. It was Wrong . Poe wasn't attacking you, you weren't on orders. But more than that, it felt like you would never forgive yourself. You had known the man for less than a day, but you still felt like you couldn't just... kill him. Even if he was responsible for so much death on your planet.
Your thumb moved away from the trigger and you sighed, dropping your head to the back of the seat as Poe's voice crackled through your headset. Alright hot shot, land on that plateau. You glanced up and saw him pointing to a high mountain, he then took off and set his X-wing down, and you followed, landing beside him.
The two of you hopped up out of the cockpits of your respective X-wings, and slid to the ground. Poe, who was more used to the action, was down in a few seconds, but you took slightly longer after getting caught on your way down. He jumped forward, gripping your sides to lift you enough for you to unhook your belt from the metal it was caught on.
When Poe put you down however, he hovered just a bit too close for a bit too long. You cleared your throat and he took a step back, giving you back your space. He turned and looked out over the valley that the mountain overlooked, and you copied his movement, leaning against the leg of your ship.
"So, First Order." He said, and you scoffed quietly at the awkwardness of his tone.
"So, Resistance." You replied, using the same tone. He laughed, shaking his head.
"Yea, Resistance." He turned to look at you curiously. "Why would you come with me, aren't you guys like, trained from birth to hate us?" He asked, honestly confused as to why you switched.
You shook your head. "That's stormtroopers. Officers, or at least most of them, choose to join. I joined about six years ago. I needed to get out of my house, away from my planet." You pulled your coat around you tighter, the cold wind drawing the heat from your bones.
"So why leave? Why would you defect?" You felt your defenses raise, but calmed them as you looked back to him.
"Things were getting intense. I was injured, things started to happen, and I was getting a lot of attention from certain high ranking individuals that just..." You trailed off but Poe picked up the slack.
"Like Kylo Ren." He said quietly and you nodded. "Leia told me that I was to keep an eye on you, make sure that no one here gets antsy and tries to hurt you." Your heart dropped at the implications that maybe the general didn't trust you, but Poe seemed to think that everything was fine.
"I don't want to be a burden. Leia said that I needed to pull my weight, I want to do that. You are all risking your lives to protect me, when you don't even know me." You said, trying to change the conversation.
Poe shrugged nodding his head toward the X-wing behind you. "You fly like that and you can be my wingman. I'm sure Leia would love to actually have someone fly with me. Most people are too scared to." Your jaw dropped at the compliment. You had seen Poe fly, not only today but also during the attack. He was one hell of a pilot.
