Samantha
I couldn't be more disappointed. How could the person I am supposed to be marrying in three months leave me stranded in my baby's father's club? I mean, did she want me to have to rely on him for help?
I still can't fathom how I deserved to get choked out like a bitch on the street.
I put my hands on her too... but a few punches and a push to the back? I don't see how the proper reaction was to take my breath away.
But I guess I should've kept my hands to myself.
After a handful of calls to January, her phone started going straight to the answering machine. I decided to take that as I am on my own. My fiancee did not care where I laid my head for the night. One thing is for certain, I wouldn't be lying next to her.
I caress the skin of my neck. It was smothering under my touch. Given how hard she squeezed my tiny, little, yellow neck..., I knew it would bruise. Hell, it might already be. I chuckle to myself a bit finally picking myself up off the floor. I plop on the sofa dropping my phone out of my hand. I reach over grabbing my purse off the the end table next to me. I open it up reaching inside and pulling out a compact mirror. My neck appears red, but not bruised. At least for now.
I lounge in the chair a bit and fester in my emotions. What the hell else could I do?
I had been questioning shit lately. I try not to. Somehow, those thoughts always come to my head. I'm not trying to live in the past but damn!
Hear me out.
I did not want to have a baby. I can't stress that enough. I wasn't ready before and I'm still not now. Okay, yes, I did pop the baby one time but he had been crying and crying. I was trying to breastfeed. That was already... uncomfortable for lack of better words. All I could think of was how much I did not want this. It wasn't okay and that's not an excuse. Then, of course, I should've been on birth control or a shot or something...
I guess I wasn't thinking about that.
"You stupid bitch" I chuckle to myself dabbing away tears. I will not ruin this makeup. I yank my ring off my finger and slip it into the zipper part of my purse.
Long story short, I have some resentment for January. In a way, she pulled this whole getting married thing out of her ass to stop me from getting an abortion.
Little ole' me goes along with anything she says. Sometimes I think back to how we got here. How many times January has shat all in my face and I take her back and she does it again.
'KNOCK KNOCK!'
Something to interrupt my thoughts.
I rise to my feet opening the door in one quick motion or at least, that's how it felt to me. It was the food. I apologize for having the door shut. I remember the whole 'no shut door until you get your food' policy. She knocked so damn hard my heart was racing.
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