Second Ball of Chances (Miya Atsumu x OC)

Chapter 20: Her Pain

11 years ago

Michiko calmed down after some hours. She was lucky that Ina stayed with her and listened to her cries and wails.

"What will you do now? Will you keep it or the other option?" Her friend worriedly asked.

She sighed as she caressed her tummy and looked at the sky. "Have I ever told you that my mother almost aborted me?"

Ina quietly listened to her friend and held her hand.

"She was a graduating student in law school with promising future from a prestigious family. She was the top of their class and my dad was just an ordinary yet diligent student. But then, she had learned that she was pregnant on her last semester of law school that made her future jeopardized."

She continued to talk.

"She was determined to get rid of me like I didn't happen at all but my dad begged her and to think that I am here right now, she softened."

"How did you know about that?" Ina asked.

Michiko laughed and answered her. "Each time we are arguing, my mom always telling me that story. So I begged my dad to tell me what happened and viola. My mom's family made it look like a wonderful and peaceful marriage because it would ruined their image."

"Little secrets from the former first family."

"That's why if I told my mother right now about the baby, she will kill us. She didn't even know I do have a boyfriend. Oops, ex-boyfriend." She said nervously.

"But she's still your only guardian."

"I know. Don't worry about me and go home."

Ina hesitated and sighed. "I will be studying abroad and to think that I will be leaving you in that state worries me."

Her friend only smiled at her. "I will be fine."

Ina bid goodbye with sad look and hugged her bestfriend. "You know that I'm here for you always."

"I know and I am very grateful."

Michiko continued walking with no place in mind until she stopped and looked at the sky. She sat down and brushed the leaves that covered her father's grave.

"Dad. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to keep my promise to you that I will be the next Miss Universe Japan. I am now carrying your grandchild. I'm scared." Her tears couldn't stop falling as she wiped it away over and over again.

"I'm scared of what will happen next. Tsumu broke up with me and I wasn't able to tell him I am pregnant. I'm scared of mom, I know she will kill me or she will kill my child. And I'm scared that if I keep this baby and become a mother, I will never be good enough for him/her. I am scared to become like mom. I'm scared of everything, dad."

She continued to cry her out to her dad until she stopped and went home.

"I didn't know you know your way home." Her mother said as she flipped the pages of the documents she was reading.

"I went to dad's grave." Michiko saw her mother stopped for a while and lost her concentration for a little bit. She may not be a good mother but she felt that her mother truly loved her father and it was only half a year since he died. She felt she didn't moved on.