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Joey screams and then ducks behind the boat, just as I push up her fake body so it looks like she was peaking above it to see where the sea monster went, Pacey can punch it making it look like he just killed Joeys character.

"And cut!" Dawson screams. "Beautiful!" He praises.

"Guys that looked really good," Jen agrees.

Dawson watches it back on his camera and smiles. "Perfect. That could not have gone any better!" He says.

Pacey tears off his mask beside me, "oh Joey," he hums. "You die so well. Dawson could we get another one of those 'cause I so love that image."

"No. We're behind schedule. Moving on." Dawson says shutting down Pacey.

Joey smiles at Pacey walking away, and I watch as Jen eagerly follows Joey. Jen and Joey haven't gotten off on the right food. Jen now being Dawsons friend who he so obviously has a crush on has caused Joey to be a complete bitch to her since Jen first got here.

Joey is obviously in love with Dawson and choses everyday to ignore her feelings, and now it's too late because he's obviously with someone else. Jen clearly wants to Joey to like her so it's been such a push and pull with Joey trying to push her away by being rude and Jen does everything in her power to pull her back.

       Just as Pacey starts to talk to me, Dawson calls for Pacey and Jen to do their kissing scene. Pacey gives me a look that says here Dawson goes again separating us. I don't mind today, I'm still upset about our interaction in the hallway from a few days ago when he completely blew me off to go to class early. He never wants to go to class, and he makes the effort to talks to me first and then blows me off? Something isn't adding up.

          Jen comes out and gets in front of Pacey. I move so I'm next to Dawson. "Action!" Dawson screams once I'm off camera.

       "Don't worry. I hope you find your cousin," Pacey says placing a hand on Jens shoulder.

        "That's so sweet of you. I can never than you enough," and Pacey pulls her in for what is supposed to be a gentle kiss, except it isn't gentle.

       He cups the back of her head, holding her there and makes it long and dramatic. "Woah!" Dawson gasp. "Cut! Cut! Pacey, what the hell are you doing?" Dawson shouts.

       Joey is laughing but I suddenly feel like I'm going to throw up. I slowly inch towards the house feeling the tears prickling my eyes. It's one thing hearing him talk about women, Pacey tends to make things up so I never truly know if he's telling the truth – seeing it first hand him kissing someone else is like a slap in the face I didn't need to today.

        I don't know if it's because of the concern Pacey had for me on the first day of school, him reading my book just to talk to me, or him begging me to talk to him because he misses me but it made me fall. So much harder then I had before. I had a silly crush before. Something I couldn't ever get, he gave me hope. Now he's crushing it right in front of me. 

       "I'm kissing man. What does it look like I'm doing?" Pacey snaps, finally letting me Jen go.

         "Snorkeling! That's not the way it's scripted," Dawson scolds. "Are you okay? Did he hurt you?" Dawson says turning his attention to Jen.

         "No, no, no. I'm fine!" Jen says and she's laughing. How is she laughing, knowing that she just kissed someone like that in front of her thing! They aren't dating but everyone can see they flirt like crazy with one another. The eyes that they give each other are a dead give away.

       "It was just a kiss Dawson," Joey says still laughing.

       "Yeah, and you know what? Honestly, I think we should have another yeah?" Pacey says looking at her, and if my heart could drop anymore it would be in the ground six feet under.

        I don't hear her response because I use the distraction as a chance to get away. Im done being hurt today. I storm into my room, locking the door behind me. My hands are shaking when I sit on the bed and I physically feel like I'm going to puke.

         The thought catches me by surprise and I stop breathing. I place my hand to my chest, feeling how quickly my heart is beating — for him. I need to stop. He's going to find someone, he's going to be with someone else and I need to aceept that it's okay and move on. I need to move on.

        I can't keep letting Pacey Witter be the deciding factor on if I am happy. I need to be happy without him because right now the thought of him being happy without me makes me want to cry.

I need to — I see the calendar up on my wall and feel a small smile form on my lips, I'm going to the dance! Im going to the dance and I'm going to forget him. First I need to look pretty.