Back To You

Chapter 3

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This was a story that was supposed to be buried with the author.

Hyunjin opened the letter surprised by so many sheets it contained he sat down with a heavy heart as he started to read.

To my loved one;
Hwang Hyunjin

I know that you will never read this letter oh how I am sure of it but being a coward I am afraid to confess my love to you so, I am writing this letter...well from where should I start this... why don't I start this from the beginning since I'm ending it all.

When I was younger I once had a loving happy family my mom loved me more than anyone and dad was always there for us but that was until my mom committed suicide in front of me...being young I was confused by the way she was speaking to me and now being at the certain age I understand what she told me.

My mother was forced to marry my dad and have me, it was all because of my grandparents they were the reason my mom had to leave her lover and her dream but she thought she was doing happy after having me...oh how she was wrong about that but she came into the contact of her lover again and being in guilt and regret she committed suicide.

I remember her last words very clearly

"If only I never had you I would be happy"

That was when I realized all her love for me was fake.

After my mom's death my dad went crazy he loved her so much that he saw me in her and abused me every single day

He would come very late at night and being not able to cook I used to starve many days and sometimes go to granny's house for food.

Hitting me every time was becoming so casual that my dad lost the fun that he saw once so he decided to bring me out thinking he was taking me out for some restaurant and games I agreed happily being a stupid child I hoped my dad was fine now.

I was fucking 13 when he sold me to his friends for 4 hours and not knowing I was sold to them I was happy to meet them hoping they would play with me but they- they tried to do things to me...I cried and struggled but in the end, I was ruined, Hyunjin.

I was left impure when Dad came back I hoped he would save me but he did not ever try to save me there I saw the look on his face disgusted he was as he accepted the money his friends gave him this happened more than once and I was unable to speak up.

I had tried to kill myself more than ever but I was such a coward I could not cut deep through my wrist

Dad started to hit me again all over and his new girlfriends also started to touch me...

I want to die.

That was when I met you.

I was 14 and it was my birthday and no one seemed to notice it or there was no one to care about it, it was always like that.

I looked over the food that was selling but I had no money to buy it starved I was ready to make my way back home until I felt someone tapping my shoulder and it was you Hyun-jin

The younger you... gave me a smile handing me the goods and running away...you must not know it but it was the only food I had that day and it seemed like a present god had sent me.