It's a giving I'm supposed to wake up everyday with a smile on my face
Pretend like nothing is wrong
Like I'm okay
This life I have created for myself is fake
It's not what I wanted in
It's what I created because I had to.
I didn't know what the future was going to hold, hell I didn't even know if I had one.
That is why what I'm doing now is so difficult.
I lost so many years of my life being sad, that I forgot to live.
Now I'm trying to figure out what I want to do while also enjoying life for the first time in years.
I always try to better myself,
For a future I always wanted,
But like I said before I don't even know what that is.
Is it with the house, husband, and kids?
Or is it
The big city in an apartment, with a career that I have always wanted?
It's always a fine line of what I wanted and what I have.
The future is so blurry to me,
The past is something I have forgotten,
The present is the happiest I have ever been.
I do not want to ruin that with thoughts of the past and future still making flashes in my brain like some sort of virus that won't go away.
I fight with myself in my brain about twice day, obviously I always win. But which me is that?
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