Fear {m.e}

Nervous

Alaska

I seriously don't know how to feel about Matthew.. I feel safe around him i feel comfortable telling him my dark past.. I told him everything and he respond it very well, I looked him into his eyes and I can tell that he's not just curious but also cared about me, well I hope it's true. I cant deal with heartbreak right now, I actually am not ready for any relationship but i had to admit that hanging out with Matt is so much fun.

Today is Monday and I need to present my project with matt to the whole class, I honestly hate to talk in front of everybody it's just my anxiety but I have to do this for Matt we worked so hard on this project I just don't wanna messed up anything. I wasn't paying any attention on the other group I was just to nervous, I think that Matt saw my hand starts to shake so he hold my hand, "hey its okay i'm here remember? Everything is going to be okay" he told me and I got relax a bit. And now is our time to present, I was to weak to stand up but Matt drag me and I got up. We start presenting, it run smoothly I'm kind of proud of myself because I can get rid of my nervousness and talk super chill. "Hey matt" I look at him "yeah" "I wanna say thank you for your support back there" "yeah its not a big deal" he smiled which makes me smiled too.

"I'm going to be right here with you, you don't need to be worry because i promise always be here for you. Always remember that you have me"

I do love that boy