love and addiction

twelve. when you're not around..who can i run to?

Letitia...
There I sat thinking, as Lani danced her ass all over me. I wasn't tempted to fuck like all those other times, Fhae ran through my head 24/7. I want my babygirl, and I could give too fucks about what I gotta go through in order to get to her. Days and days went by since our conversation and still I managed to want to be in her presence, be in her skin, even smell her scent of warm vanilla every minute of every day. My head was so clogged with the high I was getting from the weed and liquor from the cup, I couldn't hear a thing this desperate bitch Lani was saying.
"Tisha baby, you good?" Lani says, as she finishes up her private dance with her favorite customer who had turned into her fuck buddy. Tisha and Lani weren't an item, although Lani was too delusional to see that. Letitia wanted Fharao, her Fharao. The woman she fought so hard to keep, was lost in the wind. It was nearing close to Tish's birthday and she hadn't planned anything, her managers, close friends, and everybody else wanted to throw her a party but she declined it. She couldn't do anything or have a fucking party without her girl...Fharao.

her girl. her lady. her inspiration.

Getting up off the seat, Tish made her way to the door until she heard Lani say, "So you not gone pay? I danced my fine ass all over you and you ain't gone pay. What the hell?" Letitia took 10 grand out her pocket and threw it towards Lani, "Stay away from me. We done." Letitia had a caught an epiphany, she had a good woman waiting for her, although that wasn't the same on Fhae's end....

Fharao...
Fharao was on a bender, a love bender. From romcoms to chocolates and tissues, she sat in her room crying over and over, she missed Tish like crazy to the point where the girl would get a smell of Tish's scent around her. The woman was her rock, and would hold her down for life. Taj had a busy day, therefore she couldn't answer any of Fhae's calls or messages, Fharao left her room and went into her father's room, seeing him asleep. Hopping in the bed, Fharao cuddled up next to her dad, the man who showed her love from the beginning. Marshall had awoken to slight movement in his bed, then realized the sight of a curly haired girl, and saw it was Fhae.
"What's wrong mama? You okay?" Marshall asked his babygirl,  who nodded her head no, she missed the woman who held her heart and broke it at the same time. Fharao wanted to let Tish in so bad, but what she had done, really fucked her up...it wasn't gone be easy.

"I wanna use so fucking bad daddy...that's how bad I miss her." Fhae missed Tish...badly.

Marshall sat her up and looked his daughter in her eyes....he could see the pain and hurt in her brown eyes, as much as he wanted to cure her heart, he couldn't. She had to do it all on her own.

That meant seeing Letitia...and trying to ignore that hurt in her body....was gonna put her at a crossroads that burned hotter than the sun's core.

A few hours later, they hear a knock at the door, nobody was coming over forreal so who knocking at they door. The father and daughter went downstairs, with Fhae grabbing her gun, they made their way to the door to answer. Looking in the peephole...it was Letitia. Fhae rolled her eyes and took a deep sigh, she did not wanna face her ex fiancè...at fucking all.

"It's Tish."

Fhae said to Marshall who looked at her in somber, "Are you sure you're okay? You ready to face her?" Marshall asks Fhae, who nods yes, she didn't want to but she had to.

Marshall went into the den while Fhae opened the door to let the woman in...oh how Fhae was in for an emotional awakening. Letitia makes her way in, closing the door behind her looking at her ex fiancè, "Hey Fhae."

Fharao looked at Tish with a stoic face, "It's Fharao to you, mothafucka." Tish looks down in bitterness and anger, "You ain't gotta call me out my name, man." Fhae looked the girl up and down, "And who the FUCK are you to tell me what the fuck to say and what the FUCK COMES OUT MY FUCKING MOUTH?" Fhae's temper was getting to her, all the shit Tish had done when she was in recovery had come back, the drug addiction that she was going theough...again...all the hate she had inside of her...had come crawling back and she was in a rage..." I'm your FUCKING FIANCÈ SO I DO HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHT TO NOT BE CALLED OUT MY NAME! ARE YOU FUCKING MAD?" Letitia yelled back as they got in each other's face, "EX FIANCÈ BITCH. GET IT RIGHT BEFORE...oohh my fucking god." Fhae breathed out in anger, "Get out. Just get the fuck out." Letitia shook her head, "No. I'm not gettin' out. NO. YOU'RE NOT GONNA PUSH ME AWAY."

Play: Spread Thin by Mariah the Scientist

Both women yelled back and forth, "GET THE FUCK OUT LETITIA! I DONT WANT YOU HERE! LEAVE!!! FUCKING LEAVE!!"

" NO!! WHY?!! WHY PUSH ME AWAY?! WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?"

Fhae stopped to look at Tish, wondering how in the entire fuck did she forget what happened. "So, we not gone forget how you fucked a whole otha BITCH while I was in recovery from DRUGS?! Nigga when you're in a whole relationship wit me?! But the fact you sat here and fucking LIED TO ME?! Are you out yo mind? Then expect to fuck wit you after allat? Naw im off you. We can be cordial, but us getting together again? U gone earn that shit."

Fhae went to door, holding it open, "Please leave and never come back unless I allow you access to me. Cuz' it's gone take a whole forever and a while for us to get talking again."

Letitia leaves out in shame and heartbreak, she was hoping to get girl back, but not this time.

Not now and prolly not ever....I guess we'll see??

Whew...yall, what Tish bout to do? And what about Fhae getting on her ass? Yall read to find out what happens next!🙌🏽🙌🏽