love and addiction

nine. heart breaks and welcome homes.

Fharao...
It had been a few weeks since Fharao got her memories back, but still her heart hurt. She was excited to tell Tish about getting her memories back but it seems that the woman was distracted...heavily distracted...anyway, it was time for Rao to go back home and the center was gonna bring her back home. Going back home meant that her life would go back to the way it was and she would be okay...only thing is: How was she going to tell Tish that they needed to take a break? Did they need a break? That's all that ran through Rao's mind as the van pulled up to her dad's home. The front door opened and there stood her sisters and their father, Marshall.

Should she fake that her memories were gone? Or just plainly surprise them in general like she said?

Fharao decided on the latter, as she got of the van walking up to front door to hug her family as her back pack hit her behind as she walked. It was crazy how someone's memory could go back so many years back just to come back eventually; Fharao was ready to live her life the way she had it: happy and stress free.

"HEY EVERYBODY MY DAUGHTER IS BACK HOME!" Marshall screams loudly going into the house as everybody crammed around them, speaking all at the same time confusing Fhae on who was really talking, her head began to hurt and she begins to breathe faster and faster, having a panic attack,"HOLD ON YALL! Baby breathe! Breathe babygirl! 1,2,3 Inhale...3,2,1 Exhale...you okay? Wanna sit down? Its alright. You're okay!" Fharao caught her breathe as she sat down to chill and calm down from the attack, looking at everybody and finally seeing the girl she really needed to talk to, Fharao saw Tish and began to get hella pissed....very pissed.

Fast walking to the girl, she raised her fist and hits the girl in her face, breaking her nose, continuously jabbing at every part of her face, thats how angry she was at her fiancé; the girl made her feel like what happened to her wasn't important. Feeling her godfather grabbing her, Proof pulled Fhae off of Tish as Fharao began to stomp her face into the cold wooden floor, screaming, "GET OFF ME MOTHAFUCKA ! GET THE FUCK OFF ME NIGGA! GET OFF MEEE!!"

Play:Stay by Rhianna ft. Mikkey Ekko

Beginning to whimper and cry, Fharao softly said in Proof's hold, "Get off of me!" Everyone wondered why the girl reacted that way, she didn't want to be touched and she just beat the shit out of her fiancé because in that moment,Fharao had flashbacks of her torment in the center: her assault. Repeatedly. It gave her nightmares upon nightmares that she lived through everyday, it pissed her off and her feelings from remembering her conversation with Tish set her off.

Still everyone wonder what happened to her at that rehab center: Did she recover and gain her memories back? If she did then why the lashing out? Did something scarcely happen?

'All I could see red....deep scarlet red...Tish had made me feel like I didn't matter plus me being in her space at that moment, it smelled like another scent on her like she had someone all over her. I don't wanna question her but I have to. I'm too paranoid at this point, and right now, I'm on edge.

Being raped...repeatedly on end...it pushed me to the edge of the cliff where I wanted to just... jump. And never come back. My 4 year old self sat on the floor looking at me as I sat in anger and bitterness. That's all there was to me, my happiness had disappeared and may never come back.

But did my problem stay with me? Or will my heart need a break?'

Tish sat up, spitting out blood in the trash can, as her face began to swell, she couldn't see out of her left eye. Fharao had done serious damage, heavy damage. So how was Letitia supposed to get movie roles now?

She'd have to wait. 

No one said a thing, only there was a silence in the room and heavy tension, with a bunch of unanswered questions. What happened to Fharao? Why is Tish getting her ass beat? Like it was crazy to see, "The fuck was that for baby? You FUCKING HIT ME!!" Tish yelled at the girl, as she began to walk over to the woman, Fharao met her on the floor at eye level, "You don't remember do you? You know, when I called you with good news? I HAVE MY MEMORIES BACK AND NOT ONCE DID YOU GIVE A FLYING FUCK LETITIA! I WAITED THERE FOR A FUCKING HOUR TO HEAR A CONGRATS BABE OR EVEN A THATS GOOD BABY, WHEN WILL YOU BE COMING HOME?! BUT I DONT HEAR SHIT, BECAUSE IT SEEMED LIKE YOU WERE DISTRACTED WITH SOMETHING ELSE, OR BETTER YET SOMEONE ELSE....so who is she Tish? Cus I can smell her on you. Baby you ain't fucking slick or slim, so tell who the fuck she is."

Letitia spoke nothing of the woman who kept her entertained while her fiancè was at rehab, she couldn't speak. The bitch was shook at this point, she was put on the spot, there wasn't no way she was gonna fess up. Shaking her head, she began to lie to the woman... "Nobody bruv. Ya acting like a div right now. Come on now. Really? Gonna accuse me of cheating?" Now Fharao could understand some of what Tish was saying to her, the girl basically gaslights her head on while also insulting her intelligence....bad fucking move Letitia... "Did you just call me stupid? And we gaslighting mothafuckas now? Bitch please! I'm not fucking ditsy hoe! So who is she? Huh? A 'friend' I don't know about? Some bitch off the streets, what? Who is she? I wanna know."

Letitia sighed, she had to tell the girl that held her heart, she fucked Lani, the girl who kept her entertained with all her naked galore, she had fucked her on the same day that Fharao had went into the hospital. Oh how much shit she was in for now; "Her name is Lani, I met her at a club back in London for my premiere of Surrounded. We were just chillin and next thing you know, we were back at the house, together. And umm yeah so...we've been getting together on and off." Shaking her head, Fharao ran to her room, her fiancé had been cheating on her for a while, and it was going on right under nose. Starting to scratch at her arm, she noticed her box on her dresser. Opening it, she saw everything had been gone except for the one that she kept under the bottom of the box, it was filled already with 80 mgs of heroin, it was enough to get her high....enough to keep her high for the next hour or so...it was back, and she had find ways to stay sober or get back into the drugs....which started everything.....
and then some...

Meanwhile, Tish met up with Lani ready to  speak on their agreement...as she got out the car, Tish began walking to Lani's car getting in, she dodged the girl's kiss beginning to tell the woman who kept her company, "We cant do this anymore. My fiancè is home. I gotta let you go." Not giving her time to say something, Letitia got out the vehicle into her own, and drove off home. She was gonna get her woman back, even if it meant Lani getting in the way...getting in their way...!

Yall its been a while. As I always say, I will update as I go but here is chapter 9.