i see now why i feel this way about the coldplay concert.
i starved myself everyday in school just so i could use the extra money to pay for the ticket. i'd walk miles just so i could save extra for the ticket. i'd lie to my parents just so they could give me extra money. i sold most of my only shoes that i use just so i can have money to pay for the ticket.
i did all of those things because i wanted to go with her to the concert. just so i could listen to our song, yellow, together. just so i could hug her to sparks and fix you.
i did all those sacrifices. but then i didn't have to. she's not to blame for the sacrifices that i did being put to waste because in the first place, i didn't have to and she didn't ask me to do it. but i still did it. but yes, if anyone's to blame.. it's me.
i chose to do this so i should deal with its consequence.
