winter episode 1

ryder

Ryder
I've been tossing and turning all night thinking about Winter. I know Bash never left her apartment last night. the jealously that's ripping through me is ridiculous. I trust him with her, I know he'd never
hurt her. especially after the revelation last night.
I knew we were all meant to be with the same woman, ever since we all came together as a
brotherhood. I just wish I had that history with her. then maybe she'd feel safer with me like she does him. I want to hold her all night. I want to be the one she runs to because she feels safe with me. I've got to take this slow. I can't mess it up and push her too hard too fast. I want her. just her. Because shes everything.
I finally drag myself out of bed and into the shower. I have to force myself to stay over here and not go knock on her door. I want to see her smile at me again. Bash better have been good to her last night. I know he was, I just feel anxious not knowing what shes doing or how shes feeling.
hopefully they're awake and I won't bother her if I go check on her.
I'm acting like a love sick puppy with her. I still can't get the way she looked on the side of the road out of my head. she looked so broken and sad. yet when she saw me the look in her eyes was of hope, relief, and I swear recognition. I don't know how she would recognize me but when she said
"I'm safe" it was like she knew me and knew I'd keep her safe. she has no idea how true that is and the lengths I would go to for her.
after I'm showered and dressed I head downstairs to get some coffee. I need it with how little I slept last night. maybe I should go bring her some coffee? I'm pacing around the kitchen like a caged animal not knowing what to do. all I want to do is see her and know that shes still ok. "you need to calm down man. shes not going anywhere"
I turn to see Jax standing there watching me with amusment on his face. I roll my eyes and say "don't act like you weren't thinking about her all night too" he starts grinning like a crazy man. "I never said I wasn't, but I'm also not burning a hole in the floor" giving me a pointed look . I flip him off and continue my rounds of the kitchen.
"where's Asher?" I ask "he's locked himself in the attic I'm not sure what he's thinking right now but he isn't in a good place" Jax blows out a breath that says hes frustrated "he's blaming himself for all of it isn't he?" I ask. I know my brothers better than anyone, we all have that extra connection due to us being triplets . I know Asher is beating himself up about something that he had no control over.
"maybe I should go try to talk to him" Jax is looking out the window and I know he's trying to see if he can see her. I shake my head and laugh. "whats so funny ?" "nothing man just you looking for her out the window" he immediately changes the topic back to what we were discussing before. "I don't
think you should bother Asher right now, give him some time to come to terms with everything. you know how much he can feel emotions."
it's been too long. I haven't seen or heard anything from Winter or Bash. I'm going over there. I can't stand it anymore. so I grab 2 cups of coffee and head over to see my girl. yes shes my girl. our girl.
'knock,knock' I hear movement inside and the door swings open a minute later. sheimmediately starts smiling at me "hi" she gives me a shy look. "hi! I brought you some coffee, I know there's none here and I promise I'll get out to the store some time today "
I see Bash coming up behind her smiling at me "hey man that coffee for me?" "its for Winter,if she feels like sharing then you can have some" I give him a look, don't push your luck you've had her all night. "I'll share! I don't need any if you want it. I can just get some water from the kitchen, it's really ok! I don't want you to not have something because of me"
she looks so scared like she thinks we'll be mad at her for taking the coffee. "sweetheart, take the coffee it's for you we're just messing around with each other" she whispers a "ok, thanks" she's looking at her feet and I can't stand not looking into her eyes. I put my finger under her chin and lift her head till she looks at me. "Winter, please don't be afraid to take something that we offer you. we'd give you anything" she stays silent like she doesn't know what to say. I'm not sure shes ever had anyone think about her and what she wants or needs. that's about to change. big time! we've just got to try to not overwhelm her with attention and let her go at her own pace. which is going to be hard.