I'm a provincial girl who wants to explore. To do that, I have to sneak out just to go to a job interviews, unfortunately I was never accepted nor got offered.
Mom doesn't like me to work far away like in the city. her reason why is "I can't do it". I don't understand the logic in it. I can't possibly understand her reasonings but in my observation, she's the one that can't do it. the thought that I will work in the city, she can't handle it. she wants me stay in the province and never grow up.
since no one's hired me to work in the city, so I thought it's not for me and thought she was right. I gave up the city dream and it caused me anxiety.
I got my first job after two years of graduating college but pandemic took it away. a year passed finally landed a real job but it didn't last long so anxiety strikes again.
