As I was writing this, I'm in my room laying in my bed as always. This world became so cruel that my mind can't handle it well. That's why I think I'm mentally unstable. Not clinically diagnosed but that's what I feel.
Earlier today, I had a breakdown. I took a shower, so they won't notice. I was crying, fast breathing and almost passing out.
For context,
My mom screams at me almost every day. Tell insults to my face and tells me that my siblings don't like me. The only time she was good to me when she needs something or when her favorite child was in the house.
She acts according on how high your earnings, in my case I got none. You complete the sentence.
the next day, the moment my sister left she started yelling. pretty much obvious she is hiding her true self among my siblings. She said hurtful things that I don't want to hear, so I closed the door, but it got worse. I can't remember how many times I thought to end my life. since I'm useless here in this world why not leave it for good?
