Fallen Star - (Kyle Broflovski X Reader)

Chapter 6: Even the best laid plans (Kyle)

Kyle was never a morning person. Even in childhood, he always appreciated a long sleep, one which was uninterrupted by noisy roosters, blaring alarm clocks, or Cartman giving him aids. That last one was maybe a little more personal than the others, but it stood nonetheless. Kyle was not a morning person. But the day after he and Y/N had made up, he finds himself going into work earlier than usual. He rationalizes it by saying that due to how much time he spent helping her with the Langford case, he needed extra time to work on his own stuff. Yet, the satisfaction he finds from completing his morning tasks prematurely isn't what makes it worth waking up early. Y/N's face searching for his when she gets in does, and the smile she gives him when she finds it.

He feels happier when he's around her. And now that they've got that whole Stan business sorted out, he can feel them becoming closer. She seems to be more comfortable around him in all aspects, speaking up whenever she needs help or speaking her mind when something's bothering her. He's so enamored by her passion for life, that unfortunately it's getting in the way of his undertaking of ending it.

He hasn't opened the file about his casualty in days. Every time he gets close, all he can think about is what happened during his last masturbation session. The lust he feels for her combined with the cruelty he associates with the act of murder is a combination he never wants to feel ever again. But he can't give her up. And if he's being honest with himself, he's not sure if he's ready to kill again. Slaughtering a piece of scum one day then walking in to see Y/N the next isn't something he's sure he wants. And if that means he has to stop killing, so be it. Plus, who knows. If his feelings towards her ever die down, the file is sitting in his computer, waiting for him to be ready again.

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He can't deny how nervous he is the day of Y/N's first trial. Offering to drop her off and pick her up from the courthouse is just an excuse he's using to see her and offer any support possible. He remembers how daunting it was for him to walk up the steps as a fresh-faced 21 year old, scared shitless that this was the defining moment of his career and would prove whether or not he had what it took to be a good lawyer. And looking at Y/N in his passenger seat, he can tell she's feeling the exact same way. Her stocking-clad leg won't stop bouncing, and without thinking he puts his hand on her inner thigh to try and calm her down. Her leg stops, and Kyle immediately returns his hand back to the steering wheel. She doesn't seem to notice, turning her head to stare out the window, but when he gazes at her in his peripheral vision, he sees her hand lightly caressing where his once was, and his insides glow.

They arrive and she turns towards him.

"Thank you so much Kyle. For everything you've done. Truly, I've never felt more prepared in my life, and it's all due to you. Anyways, wish me luck!" She says, her eyes filled with enthusiasm.

"Good luck," he replies smiling, and she nods before getting out of the car.

Kyle watches her carefully as she walks up the steps of the courthouse. She's dressed in a crisp black blazer and matching blouse, along with a dark gray skirt that hugs her ass. He curses himself for thinking such thoughts on such a stressful day for her, then curses himself again for not being by her side during it. He wishes he could, but the firm's having an important board meeting today to discuss some potential management changes, which Kyle cannot miss.

It doesn't matter anyway. He can't concentrate the entire time, his mind constantly wondering how Y/N's doing at that moment. The chairman drones on about budget cuts while he thinks of ways he can take her out to celebrate after she's done. Today was supposed to be the day of his casualty's dinner party/death, and while he did manage to secure an invitation under the alias of one 'Brad Champion', he doesn't feel up for it. Not when he has Y/N to look forward to.