Lost Angels

Troubles

Damian's POV

I return to the hotel completely unsettled.
I slam the door and throw my jacket on the floor.

Damian: " FUCK ! " I shout in frustration.

I decide to take a shower, hoping it will calm me down.
But no..all I do is cogitate and imagine the worst possible scenarios.

Once out, I put on a black jogger with a white t-shirt and I collapse on the bed.

I just wanted to go and see her, to apologize for being so cold and distant with her earlier, and what did I see ?
Madeline and her fucking ex, in each other's arms.

How stupid of me, to think I could compete with someone who already had her heart.

I get up and pace in the room, wondering...

What if she go back to him ?
Maybe they're even back together now...God..

Have I really lost her ?

I grab my phone, ready to call her, but stop in my tracks.

No...She was never mine to begin with...

D: " GODDAMN IT ! "

I throw my phone across the room and it smashes against the wall.

I clench my hair with my hands, bitting my lip, holding me back from turning the room upside down.

I step out onto the balcony and light up a cigarette.

I contemplate the city below me, decked out in its most beautiful lights for the night.
And like a moth attracted by light, I decide to go out and burn my wings.

I put my cap, pick up my jacket from the floor and shut the door behind me.

10 PM

I walk down the street like a lost soul.
Looking for something to make me feel alive.

It's Saturday night, the streets are crowded. These people are all looking for different things.
Some are looking for their adrenaline fix, some are looking for intoxication, and some are looking for...lust,
the excitement of a night without regrets.

What about me, you ask?

I'm just here to forget...

I stop in front of the " Lemoºn ".
This is a pretty famous underground club where I used to came a few years ago.

I approach the bouncer.

D: " Hi Gabe, long time no see ! "

Gabe: " Damn ! Look who it is ! "

He shakes my hand and gives me a hug .

Gabe: " How have you been Mister Famous ! "

D: " Pretty busy " I smile.

Gabe: " Im sure you are ! " He nudge at me.
" Lee's upstairs, is in his office."

D: " Thank you ! Take care " I pat his arm.

Gabe: " You too man ! "

I enter the club and I am immediately immersed in the atmosphere.

The bass echoing through my body, the spotlights and neon lights burning my retinas, and these unleashed bodies, dancing to the beat of the music, sweating alcohol and other euphoric substances.

I was one of them not so long ago.

D: " Bittersweet memories..." I says to myself.

I decide to have a drink and head for the bar.
I sit down and wave to the bartender.