Fine Line

7. We'll get the drinks in

Billie

I lay in bed for a while, just staring up at the ceilings reliving the events of earlier. I should've kissed her.

I know that it's wrong but she's just so... irresistable. I wanted the coldness from her. I wanted her avoidance but when I saw her just sitting there, I wasn't going to leave her there. Something could've happened to her while she was out there, but for the most part, I just wanted sometime alone with her.

And I know she feels like I don't care but I've been trying so hard not to. She's my student and it's wrong. It was wrong for us to kiss. It's wrong for her to be at my house right now, sleeping on my couch. It's wrong for me to feel something for her when we've only known each other for just a small time over a week. Everything about this is so wrong but when I'm with her... it feels so right. Like everything in my life falls into place and everything bad washes away when she's in my pressence. Even though I try to be a bitch to her, I still feel something no teacher should feel for their student.

I harshly slam my hands down on the bed a cuss myself because I know I'm about to make a bad decision. I get up, walking quietly out of my room and down to the living room where I'll find her. Before I even come out of the hallway, I see the small light and tiny voices coming from what I guess is her phone. I walk closer, seeing her lying on the couch, her arm behind her head as she scrolls through TikTok. The way her arm is keeping her head up makes the shirt fall to her shoulder and shows off her bicep, making my body hot and flushed.

Damn, does she workout?

"Did I wake you up?" She asks and I jump at her voice. She isn't looking at me and it's dark where I'm standing. So I have no idea how she saw me.

"I can feel you staring at me." She says and her face turns, her eyes locking with mine.

"No, you didn't wake me up. I couldn't sleep." I say and she nods, looking back at her phone. I just stand there awkwardly, staring at her as she pays no attention to me. I wonder what it would be like to cuddle with her, laying my head on her chest and fall asleep to the sound of her heartbeat.

"Are you okay?" Her voice rings through my ears and I snap out of my thoughts.

"Yeah, I'm good." I say, walking into the kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it up with water. I turn around, my eyes locking with hers as I take a sip of my water. She is still sitting in the same position, only now her phone is laying against her chest. Suddenly, I'm envious of an object because it's where I want to be.

"Are you sure you're okay? You seem to be thinking about something." She says with a blank face and I just blink at her.

"I'm fine Dakota. I promise." I say when I pull the glass from my lips.

"Whatever you say Miss Eilish." She says and I raise a brow at her.

"You're sleeping on my couch, I'm sure that it wouldn't hurt for you to call me by my first name when we aren't in school." I say and I can see a hint of a smile trying to pull against her lips.

"Well, I kind of don't know your first name." She says and I chuckle.

"Billie." I say and she nods.

"Well Billie, I don't believe you." She says and my brows furrow.

"Why not?" I ask her, trying to ignore the butterflys I feel in my stomach when she says my name.

"Because you seem to be very spaced out. Hardly talking and you seem tense." She says with a shrug as she just stares at me.

"I'm just... thinking about everything." I say with a small shrug as I look down at the glass in my hands. I see a little movement and I hear her walking. I thought that she went to the bathroom but when I look up, she is almost in front of me. Her brows are furrowed as she looks down at me.