Fine Line

29. The days we used to be

Billie

After Dakota and I both clean up the kitchen, we head down to my bedroom to get ready for bed. Once we walk in, I notice her bags laying on the floor by my dresser. I turn, looking at her with my brows furrowed, wondering why her stuff is here.

"I figured you'd ask me to stay with you until I leave so I stopped by the hotel, grabbed my stuff and checked out." She says and I smile slightly. Of course I was going to ask her to stay with me. Who knows when the next time I'll see her will be so I want to spend as much time with her as I can. The thought of not seeing her in months, maybe a year after the trip hits me and I'm struck by a wave of sadness.

"Hey, you okay?" She asks, walking up to me and placing her hands against my cheeks.

"Sorry. I'm just sad that you'll be leaving soon." I say and she sighs quietly.

"I know. But you'll be with me for a week next month and then I'll visit as often as I can." She says and I nod.

"I just don't like the idea of you leaving after I just got you back." I say and she presses her lips to my forehead.

"Let's not think about that right now. Let's just enjoy our time together." She says and I nod, knowing that I shouldn't dwell just yet when I have her here with me. I look up at her and she smiles, making me smile back.

I wrap my arms around her neck and press my lips against hers. She kisses me back and wraps her arms around my waist, pulling me so that my body is flush against hers. Her hands trail up and down my sides until she reaches the back of my thighs. She picks me up effortlessly and walks over to my bed. She sits down, leaving me on her lap and doesn't stop kissing me.

Her arms wrap around my waist, pulling me closer to her. My arms wrap around her neck, turning my face to deepen the kiss. I hum softly, basking in the warmth spreading through my body at her kiss. She nibbles on my bottom lip slightly and then swipes her tongue over it. I open my mouth quickly, letting her slip her tongue past my lips. My hips start rocking invaulentarily, and just as quickly, her hands grip them and stop their movements. I pull away from her and look into her eyes.

"You can't keep doing that." I say softly and her brows furrow.

"I know that you want to take things slow but you have no idea how sexually frustrated I am." I say and she sighs.

"I do know." She says softly and I lift her chin so that she can look at me.

"Do you?" I ask and she nods.

"I haven't been with anyone since I met you." She says and my brows furrow.

"Really?" I ask and she nods.

"Even in the five years we were apart?" I ask and she nods once again.

"Me either." I say and she sighs, leaning her head against my chest.

"Billie, you have no idea how much strength I have to stop you. But I want this to be different. I need this to be different." She says and I kiss the top of her head.

"Kota, it's already so much more different than anything else. We love each other, we've loved each other for 5 years." I say, leaning my cheek against the top of her head. She moves her head slightly so I move mine until we're eye to eye again.

"Is this really what you want?" She asks and I nod.

"Because if we do this, there is no going back. If you give yourself to me completely, I will never let you go. For anything. You'll be mine forever." She says and I can feel my cheeks heat up at her words.