Repeat

back to Hogwarts

Ash pov

I'm scared to go back, what if people find out that I'm hiding identity?, will they make fun of me? I get pulled out of my thoughts by Rogan wishing me a good morning.
Rogan-"good morning love, sleep well"
Ash-"yea"
Which was an obvious lie, I didn't sleep all night with thoughts racing through my head.
Rogan-"we need to wake up, we have an hour before we have to leave"
I nod and get out from under the covers. I get a pair of jeans and a sweater and leave to take a shower. As I'm about to lock the door, Rogan walks in.
Ash-"I'm taking a shower"
Rogan-"and can't I join my boyfriend in the shower"
Ash-"n..yea but just not today"
Rogan-"please, I just want to spend time with you"
I don't know how to tell him without hurting him but he can't see my body, he'll be so disgusted.
Rogan-"please"
Ash-"I...."
Rogan-"there's nothing to be ashamed of, I've seen your body before"
I drop my head and nod knowing I can't do anything to change his opinion. He begins to undress and I follow him with shacking hands. I slowly take my pj top off, turned away from Rogan so he doesn't see how my breasts have enlarged and how my body's becoming curvier. I step in the shower and turn away from my boyfriend.
Rogan-"what's wrong love, why are you hiding"
I shake my head as I don't trust my voice to not crack. Tears streaming down my face. He turns me around so I'm facing him.
Ash-"I...im becoming...a g....girl again... I can't... I hate it"
Rogan-"what do you mean?"
Ash-"th...the spells are starting t...to stop w.. working"
Rogan-"I love you and everything about you no matter what"
Ash-"b...but I don't I h...hat myself right n..now"
He hugs me tightly, it lasts at least a minute. He pulls away and starts kissing every inch of my body.
Ash-"what are you doing?"
Rogan-"I'm kissing everything I find beautiful about you"
Once he's done we both get out, he dries me and as he's drying himself I get dressed into the clothes I brought in earlier. We get called down, we drag our trunks down, well, Rogan drags mine because apparently I can't overwork myself. We get down and apparate to the station. When we get there we say our goodbyes to 'mum' and get on the train. We find a compartment and sit with all the others, I wonder why Ava looks so down. I get the courage to ask.
Ash-"are you ok Ava?"
Fred-"no, something happened over the summer"
Rose-"and that would be?"
Filip-"Av, can we tell them?"
She nods.
Fred-"so, not long ago, maybe a couple of weeks, Ava had a miscarriage. It really hurt her mentally as well as physically"
Rose gets up and gives her a hug. We sit around and chat for the rest of the journey until we get to Hogwarts.