raindrops

confused

there's this new guy in school

and he's honestly cool.

i describe him as 

a fictional like character

because i can't believe people

like him in real life exist

and not just in books i read.

serious expression, cold aura, glasses

seriously i want to tear some paper in pieces.

what is this guy doing to me?

admiring someone, is he the key?

but i don't fall and like someone directly

but i also tend to hide my feelings secretly

and now i'm confused if i'm being denial or not

i don't have the realization or gut

yes i'm pathetic

i get it.

now i want to cuss

he's making my heart fuss

and i'm now very confused.

the hell is wrong with me?

can i slap myself already?

realized i'm counting off

from one to three

ouch.

i slapped myself hardly.

and i still can't accept the fact

that i'm thinking of him now hesitantly.

and i barely know him at least.

why on earth am i doing this?