My Paradox Mind

Chapter 1: What's New?

Hello there, I am Dom an ordinary student from a University of great potential and grace. I am currently 2nd year in High School from the class of Delta21. It's been years since I have felt a difference in my life everything seems so similar to what I had before. But why do I feel something new this year, well let's just let time tell.

6:54am Monday 

I got to school just on time for class, good thing I am not late. So I drop my things by my chair near the  windows at the west side of my classroom. I then went out of my classroom and head towards my locker with a number tag "454" as I get my things I took a glance at the door behind me. It was the leading class of the year, Class Alpha11 and I saw my friend Ria through the window of the door. then after glancing at the window I took some time reflecting about something in my mind then I just realize that it was time to head back. So I took my stuff and sealed my locker then I rushed back to my classroom. 7:07am and classes started after a general assembly, our first class is about Filipino and our teacher is Ma'am Charm.

Ma'am Charm: Magandang Umaga (Good morning)

All: Magandang Umaga Ma'am Charm (Good morning Ma'am Charm)

So we started our lessons about our native language and a story written by Fransico Balagtas entitled "Florante at Laura" which talks about 2 lovers who did their all to be together even if the road was rough and so they did, they lived happy ever after and then time came and ended the period and another subject took over. Nothing changed... it was the some old routine everyday. Then something happened during lunch time...

12:36

"Dom, someone is looking for you outside" Travis said. I asked who was it and he replied, "I don't know but she's outside". "Ok I got it", from what Travis said I stood up from my chair and headed towards the door, pondering on who was outside then I went out the door only to find Ria. Ria and I just met a few weeks ago in a contest, we just met that day but we started talking in FB then we got close somehow :)) And she was the same friend I saw this morning.

Ria: "Dom, can you teach me in TLE?" 

Me: "Sure about what?"

Ria: Computer and Word etc... 

Me: Ok, Library? 

Ria: Yup :))

So we went to the Library and we both looked for a table and sat down facing each other then I taught her there. When I was teaching her I couldn't explain what I was feeling... was I nervous or was I happy? I don't know. Just seeing her in front of me makes me feel different as if my heart is playing a set of drums. WHOA!! What am I saying?! Anyway it was 12:54 and we need to get back to our classrooms. so we both stood up and left the Library while we climbed the flight of stairs to our classroom I gave her some reminders about what I taught her. Then we smiled at each other and we said our goodbyes.

After that I felt different, I felt happy and easy as if the world just stopped instantly and I am just with her in the library seeing her eyes like stars that shines upon me. From the very first time I met her I felt something I can never say what it is but it felt different, different in way I have never felt before, what is my heart telling me?? Anyway classes resumed after lunch break, time has passed and It was dismissal time, I left the classroom with my group namely Jonase, James and Rainer they are my closest friends from Delta21. But even if I was a part of their group I was the one unique and paradox or in other words I am very different from them. 

And so we left the school then we walked on by passing the Plaza, chatting about things. Then suddenly we started talking about love. 

Jonase: Have you guys ever felt love?

James: Before...

Rainer: Same here 

Me: Well No I came from an all boy school

Jonase: Well surely you're missing out, I fell in love too and it felt awesome 

James: But it hurts too...

Rainer: Actually it depends 

Me: Really?

Jonase: Yeah :)) but for sure you had a crush last year

Me: Well yes... 3 to be exact but I already moved on :)

I actually liked 3 people last year but now I moved on...

James: So who is your crush now? Mine is from Yankee12

Jonase: Mine is from our class, 

Rainer: I don't have any

James: Weh!! Rainer!! I know you like someone 

Rainer: I had a former crush from Sierra19 but I somehow still like her

James: Hahaha told you 

Jonase: I guess someone can't relate haha a someone that moved on ahaha

James: Yeah haha now what about you Dom... Who do you like now?

Me: Well I don't know... 

James: Really? haha I bet it's that girl you were talking to earlier haha 

Me: Who? Ria? No... we are just friends XD

Jonase: haha that is what you think :)) Dominic has a crush on Ria haha

Me: Wow that's very mature :))

Jonase: awww... why can't take it haha

Me: haha :)

James: Well I got to go see ya my friends 

Jonase: Yeah same here

Rainer: Me too 

Me: Ohhh.... so you guys will just leave me....

Jonase: Don't worry just think about Ria haha

Well the 3 left and I started walking around the campus because I was bored. While I was moving about I questioned myself about her... Do I like her? I don't know things just seem to move so fast, time is flying and we're already half way through the school year. As I was walking around I saw her and I think she saw me as well but I can't say... and so I kept walking and I kept asking myself. Do I like her? Do I really like her? Is she the Laura in my life as Florante? Come on think Dominic think!! And I just realized it was 5:58pm so I need to get back home and the same question came to my mind over and over again. But I can't find an answer... I feel like I like her... but I am not sure...

The Following day I asked my best friend about what I feel. She is Selvaria, one of my classmate last year and one of my closest too...

"Selvaria, can we talk?" I asked

"Sure Dom what is it?" 

"Have you ever had a crush on someone?" 

"Yeah, why did you ask?" 

"I don't know, I think I like someone?" 

"Ohh... Who?"

"Ria from Alpha11" 

"Really?!!" 

"Yes but I am not sure of what to do..."

"Then tell her what you feel ;))"

"WHAT!! I can't do that!!"

"Yes you can, just go to her and tell her the truth Dom" 

"Ok I will try, Thanks for the Advice" 

"Anytime ;))"

And so I thought of a plan on when to tell her and it will happen soon hopefully :)) Then time passed by the same old routine started to change into something different. And my feelings for her started to grow greater and greater, I really like her... And what is not to like? She Beautiful, Smart and Loving. Just all of the sudden everything seems so near yet why can't I grasp for it? Why can't I get close enough to grab it and hold it dear? Is it because I doubt who I am or what I want? I don't know I can't say what will happen next but I have a feeling I will soon find out...