My Paradox Mind

Chapter 2: The Day is now!

It seems that high school week is here. High school week is a week when we students enjoy ourselves and bond with our fellow friends. And on the Thursday of this week is Feb 14 Valentines day and the following day is HS dance where students enjoy dancing and partying around like there is no tomorrow ;)) Well of course I have my own plans for someone special. 

8:04am Monday

Me and my friends were just sitting near the podium of our classroom chatting about what to do.

James: Yes!! Finally it is HS week!! What do you guys want to do?

Rainer: Well I am going to just follow what ever you guys do.

James: What about you Dom? What are your plans this week? 

Me: Well I have my own plans for her

Jonase: Hahaha I got my own plans as well

Jonase started speaking his mind about the plan he has, his plan is to sing to Mia which was one of the cutest in my section according to him :) And James said his plan as well, he will give a stuffed bear with brown fur clinging to a heart of scarlet color to Tina. And they both said that they will do it on Thursday Valentines day. 

Rainer: Well I don't have any plans... 

James: Aww.... Sad for you...

Jonase: Dom what about you? You haven't told you plan yet.

Me: Well I won't do it on Thursday...

James: Why? it's valentines day it's the perfect time. 

Me: Well that's the point... everyone will do it on Thursday... I want it to be unique, I want her to feel special :)

And so I narrated my plan to them... I will tell her on Friday to be unique, during High school dance. Then there will be a surprise, I told them that I will handle the other parts... anyway they are coming to the dance, So I think they will be able to witness what my Plan :) 

I was walking around the campus after class and I realize that 3 days have passed and tomorrow is about to be the biggest fail or achievement of my life. So I texted her "Hi Ria are you coming to the HS dance? I want to tell you something" And She said "Yup, what is it ba? Happy Valentines" "I will tell you tomorrow, Happy Valentines :))" There the plan is set, so I thought of something unique. "Will I sing to her or will I give her a letter?" And I made up my mind I will do both. 

11:30 Friday

I went to her section and I looked for my friend Vince. I asked "Vince, can I ask for a favor?" "What is it?" "I want you to put this letter in Ria's bag, use my jacket to cover the letter" "Got it" and I waited for him. Then he came out "So did you put it?" "Sorry dude I wasn't she was there" Not knowing what to do I thought of another plan "That's ok my friend" I took the letter and I head back to my section to hide it. Then I said to myself "I will just give it to her when I meet her later" 

5:43pm 

Well this is it... she is just a few meters away from me and I am waiting for the right moment to talk to her anyway I had a friend to accompany me while I wait. By the way we are at the covered court gym of our campus, We are actually outside by the benches. Whoa... just seeing her makes me feel different what am I feeling, just by looking at her I can feel her gentle presence, Dominic WAKE UP!!! SHE'S COMING!! Then when I came back to my senses I told my friend to head inside the court and I will meet him there. And here she comes this my chance

Me: "Ria, Can we talk?"

Ria: "Sure Dom, oh?? what do you want to tell me?" 

My heart started to pound against my chest and I can't get a grip of my hands... I am shaking... But I need to be strong! 

Me: "Ria, I always wanted to tell you this... From the very first time I met you I felt different..."

Ria: "What is it?"

Me: "I... I... like you... Ria"

I was shaking to death... I was scared of what will happen next... I can't get a grip... ARGH!!! this is so nerve wrecking! Then Ria smiled at me and said.

Ria: "Aww :) Thank you Dom I appreciate it :))" 

Me: "Can I ask?"

Ria: "Sure :)"

Me: "Can I sing to you?"

Ria: "Ok :)"

There I sung to her "Ako'y sa yo" and I couldn't get a grip... but I was able to sing properly haha and she has a good voice as well :)) 

Ria: "Thank you so much Dom :)"

Me: "Your welcome and here have this"

Then I gave her the letter that I was supposed to give earlier this lunch,

Ria: "Thank you again"

Then we both stood up and I was actually going to ask her if I can hug her but a friend of mine kinda interrupted. So we both went inside and I needed to think of another way on how to ask her. Lucky I texted her again and I asked can we meet again? and so we did... It was after the program, like the teachers performances and some of my friends dance routines. Then afterwards everybody started dancing and playing around. And there I was just moving around and someone suddenly called my name "Dom!" As I looked towards the direction of the familiar voice. It was Ria calling out to me with open arms and then I came to her and hugged her. WHAT A FEELING!!! all of the sudden I felt a great energy flowing within me, as if I was set free from all the fears and routines of life. I was happy... I was in harmony. I wonder did she hear what I said? "I Love you Ria <3" I don't know but I hope she did... Then we ended our hug with a smile and we parted ways going back to my group while she goes to her's. 

I felt so happy that day knowing I was able to tell her I really like her. YES!!! I did it :) So this is what my friends tell me. It feels great to finally confess to someone you like, but I fear some things may happen. I don't know what, but I am grateful that this happened :)

Then after all the epic things we have done, it was time to go home. While I was waiting for my Dad I was thinking about what happened. The feeling of a warm hug from the person you like :) haha I felt  like I was stuck by thunder's sweet side. Shocking yet Gentle :)) I wonder what if things just suddenly falls in place? What if she likes me back? What will I do? and suddenly my Dad came and we left. Leaving the question unanswered... So I said let time tell and narrate the story :) 

Saturday

Well yesterday was one of the best days ever :) and it seems that  the question is still unanswered. Well I can never predict the future, but if it ever happens then I will be a very happy person. Ria is sweet as sweet as a red rose flower, she changed my life... she inspires me... she makes me happy... But still I question "Is this a test or is this a Blessing? is God telling me something? is he telling me to think about myself for once? or is he testing me? I can never answer that... Why? Why do I have all these questions? and why do I ask why? THIS IS MY PARADOX MIND!!! I seek for things that doesn't need seeking, I am totally opposite to everything. But somehow I enjoy it, no not somehow I really enjoy it, not because I am weird because this is who I am. Dominic The Paradox!!