My Paradox Mind

Chapter 7: Farewell

Exams has ended and there is 2 days left... ahh... I feel like this year is still incomplete, it's like there is still something missing. Well to make the most out of what I have, I want to spend my time with my friends, bond and have fun.

Thursday 

For today and tomorrow we will just complete all our requirements, good thing I am done so meaning to say I don't have to do anything, just stand by if anyone needs assistance. Good thing Jonase and Rainer were finished as well so we just talked the whole day. We talked about playing later on after class, we planned on playing at our local computer shop outside the campus. And so it was set 4:30pm in front of the high school building. 

Then it was lunch break and I just talked with my friends, Selvaria, Lian, Joyce and Bry. Actually I was just talking with Selvaria and the others were just near by. 

"So how's life Dom?"

"Complicated... haha"

"Why?"

"Remember what I told you?"

"About what? About Ria?"

"Yeah"

"Why? What did you do?"

"Well surely you were there during HS dance and the practice"

"Yeah, you two were sweet, Yiee"

"Haha, well there I really like her... maybe not like... I love her"

"Then go for her"

"I don't know... She deserves better than what I can give..."

"Aww... why?"

"I don't think I would be a great... well you know... BF"

"Don't think that way Dom" and she kinda laughed

"Why it's true"

"No, that's not true... Your so sweet and hardworking"

"Really?"

"Yeah, you helped me with a lot of things and you not only helped me you helped countless others"

"Yeah... but..."

"If you love her then go for her!"

"I don't know"

"Stop doubting yourself!! you kept on caring for us :)) it's time for you to care about what matters to you"

"But my friends are the ones that matters"

"Right she is your friend"

"Yeah"

"Then care for her" 

Well surely Selvaria wants me to go for her, but what I worry is that if I go for her will I be able to give her everything? will I be able to be her everything? Sigh... 

"Selvaria, I think it's best I do it after High school or College" 

"Why?"

"I want to keep my agreement with Ria"

"Which is?"

"She told me that we should focus on our studies and treat each other as an inspiration, I want to keep that agreement" 

"Ohh.. you should have said that at first haha"

"Well... yeah... haha, so for now studies first but if it is possible to balance things then ok sure"

"Haha ok then :)) Good luck haha" 

"Thanks haha, let's talk again :)) another time"

After our conversation I went out to get my stuff from my locker, because we need to empty our lockers before the school year ends. And yes I saw her, she was a few meters away from me and she was talking with her friends. I took several glances to see her smile and to sense her aura, did I ever say that she has great charisma. Anyway I had to return to my classroom because I needed to talk with Rainer about what Selvaria and I talked about.