a/n: hi everyone! this chapter will be talking abt y/n's ED so if that is triggering pls dont read! itll also bring up a bit of implications that y/n does SH but, thats all. i hope u all enjoy this chapter!
y/n's pov i was on my way back from school when i realize that i had no homework, meaning that id be home bored. so i called my younger brother, fernando (she's gonna call him nando throughout nearly the entire story btw) and asked him if he wanted to go to the mall with me. obviously he said yes, so i went out to get him from his school
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here's nando btw guys (no clue who he is i found him on pinterest😍😍)
we're two years apart, so we're pretty close. anyways, i finally got to his school and drove a little to find him.
it didn't take that long to find him "hi menso hurry up and get in" i say to him "damn give me time" he says rolling his eyes "no nando let's goooo" "okay okay im ready damn let's go"
i drove us to an outdoor mall close to his school "ok where do you wanna go first?" i asked. i always let him pick where to go because he was younger. "mm lets go to tillys. i need sweats, socks, and a hoodie." he replies "nando you already have that all." "i knowww but those are my clothes for practice, especially socks. i only have grippy socks and those aren't the best for putting botas on." he replied sorta pouting "okay fine lets go. do you have your card?" i asked "noo.." he replied shrugging "oh my gosh. okay i'll pay, and you'll pay me back at home." "okayyy let's just gooo" he said grabbing my hand and dragging me to tilly's
we went all across the mall, i bought him everything he wanted. "y/n im hungryy lets go and get foodd" he said i always hated this, i hated getting food with other people. even if it was my brother. i never liked ordering too much or i felt like id be getting judged. getting food with other people also meant id have to eat in front of other people, another thing i dreaded. nonetheless, i drove nando and i to wingstop, his favorite place to eat. "alright nando ur paying me back for what i got you right?" i asked "yes y/n why" he replied rolling his eyes "okay then ill pay for our food" i said "oh my gosh y/n i love you youre my favorite sister ever i love you" he said happily wiping off fake tears "im your only sister fernando." i said rolling my eyes we got to the wingstop and ordered. nando ordered like half the menu while i only ordered 6 wings and a drink. if i got more hungry i figured that id take some of nandos, after all i was the one who payed for it. by the time we got home the sun had set. "nando" i called before we went inside "mande hermana?" he replied "come flick me up" i told him handing him my phone i know it seems weird for someone who has this many insecurities to want to take pictures to post for everyone else to see and ridicule, but there were times that i found my sick body pretty, even if i starved it. nando took the pictures and we headed inside. i ate my food and stared at the pictures nando took, looking for the best one. after i found the one i liked most, i stared again, making sure nothing was wrong with it. i chose the song "suena" by junior h and jose mejia. i know it seems like im "attention seeking" to use songs that mention my personal issues, but it was my own "cry for help". i thought maybe if someone noticed theyd care enough to ask what was wrong. id obviously not tell them but itd be nice to know someone cares.
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(the lyrics say "que feo se ve que te cortes la piel. tu eres hermosa, mi linda mujer.", or "how ugly it looks that you cut your skin. you are beautiful, my pretty girl")
i posted the story and put my phone down. all of a sudden, i got notifications from insta.
diego_lainez Replied to your story: w fittt
y/.nn *liked a message* thank uu
of course! btw are you sure you dont mind all the stuff with kevin and joao
who are they again? sorry my memory is bad when it comes to names
the two boys always with me
oohh yeah its all good lol they're js trolling i get it
alr just lmk i can make em stop if it ever gets too weird for you say the word and theyll stop okay?
thanks diego but rly its fine
okay okay btw were the lyrics just a coincidence or are you like not okay sorry if im overstepping
oh yeah im okay
are you sure again im sorry if im overstepping you really just dont sound like it
im not *y/.nn unsent a message* i am diego thank you though
y/n's pov i had no clue what came over me to ever tell anyone i wasnt okay. i hated people seeing me vulnerable. i know its cringe but i felt so helpless with him. just the words "or are you not okay" made it seem like he could see right through me. suddenly, i got a call. from diego.
a/n: oooo cliffhanger 🌝 anywaysss by the next few chapters the explanations of y/n's disorders should be over with, she lowkey seems a little bit like she over-explains all her issues but its just so you all get the feel of how bad it is. but also COPA AMERICA AND EUROS HAVE BEEN CRAZY 😭 i lowk wanted spain to have euros but i think france is gonna win tmw 😣 and mexico disappointed me HEAVY i never thought id be that ashamed of my own country 😭anywaysss thats all for today guys! i hope you enjoyed and have a great day/night! i love you 💗
