I HATE YOU

The confrontation

Izzy's POV

It's been a week since I've seen Luke. He hasent come to school and I haven't even seen him when I go to Sam's house. Is he avoiding me or is is coincidence?

I feel so bad about leaving him and I don't even know why I did. I wish I hadent.

I haven't stopped thinking about his since. How his lips interlocked with mine, how his breath tased minty, how his hands traveled the length of my body. I miss him. I want to see him again, but I don't know how. I most of all want to Kiss him again. I want to feel him again.

Finnaly I've summoned the courage to knock on his door.

*knock , knock* I awaited the door opening. But when it did he wasn't there, Zoe was.

"IZZY!" She exclaimed while reaching to hug me.

"Hey Zoe, have you seen your brother?" I hugged her back.

"Yea he's upstairs. He hasent left his room in foreverrrr." She explained

I let out a little laugh at her and she took my hand to lead me to his room. When we got there Zoe released me and went into her room to leave me standing awkwardly outside of his. I swayed in my feet and then decided to get it over with. I knocked on the door.

Silence

DEAFENING SILENCE.

"Come in!" I heard him yell.

God I forgot how much I missed that voice. I inhaled a sharp breath then opened the door. It was dim but I could see Luke clearly. I froze. He froze.

It felt like an eternity before I spoke, "Luke." It sounded more as a question than a statement.

"Izzy"

I sighed and took another step forward. "I-I'm sorry Luke" I saw him stand up and face me. "I miss you"

His face dropped, "then why, why did you leave Izz?"

I dropped Mu head. I didn't know why.

"I don't know... I've regretted it" I fingered with my fingers  "I'm sorry"

Tears swelled in my eyes. "Can I ask you something?" He nodded "why did you do it? Why then"

His head shot up to look at me.

"I just couldn't I guess- understand why and I was scared"

"Scared? Izzy, I don't want you to be scared?" He said as he walked toward me. His arms wrapped around me and I leaned into him. "Why are you scared?"

I didn't know. I couldn't tell him.

"Were you scared of me?" I could sense the hurt in his voice.

I didn't want him to be hurt. I hate that I'm hurting him.

"No... I'm not scared of you. I- I'm scared of what's gonna happen if we do this." I paused "I mean we're both graduating in a few months and going to different colleges and I don't want to miss you. But even if I'm not with you now I miss you and I-" the tears started comming. "I don't know what to do"

He caressed my head and shushed me. "We don't have to think about graduation, we don't even have to think about tomorrow. I've missed you too baby"

This warms my heart and I feel a sense of relief. All I can think about is how far apart we'll be when I'm in New York and he's in California for business school. How far apart we'll be.

He brought us over to his bed and I layed down. He joined me and we sat there intertwined with eachother as close as can be for the next two hours.
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I'm trying to think of what school she would go to and her major but I'm comming at a blank. Comment what you think. XX