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This was a terrible idea. Turn around and walk away before anyone notices.
Sana's hands trembled at her sides. She shook the appendages out in an attempt to regain feeling in the tips of her fingers. Her body felt numb with nerves as she stood outside the midnight blue door, unsure whether to proceed or not. She'd been debating for the entire week since they got back from internships if she was going to go through with this or not. She wasn't quite sure if she was ready to face this yet, but she was also aware that she couldn't put it off forever. The not-knowing was eating away at her, keeping her mind racing all night with questions she alone could not answer.
She'd gone to Katsuki's secret hideout early that morning to watch the sunrise. Sana had needed a place to think and contemplate whether she could go through with today or not. She'd called Hitoshi, not wanting to wake anyone up and knowing that the insomniac was probably just now readying for bed. From the lack of grogginess in his voice when he answered, she knew her initial thoughts were correct.
"What are you afraid of?" He'd asked not unkindly after she'd filled him in on her plans.
What if they don't like me? What if I'm not good enough? What if... "What if I'm not what they hoped for?" Sana frowned down at her lap, twisting her rings around her fingers. Her fear of rejection was rearing its head, pushing itself to the forefront of her mind. Apart from her quirk and pretty face, she was viewed as a disappointment to her father's family. Her morals just didn't align with theirs. If her mother's side felt the same... "What if they already have an idea of who I should be as her daughter and I don't fit that role? I don't know anything about her or them." The strawberry blonde hung her head. "I feel so unprepared."
"Listen to me," he spoke, his tone surprisingly soft. "You're gonna walk in there with your head high and show them what a fuckin' badass you are. You don't need their approval or anyone else's. If they don't like you than that's their loss. You don't need that shit in your life."
Sana broke into a watery grin, hoping he could sense the gratitude she couldn't express enough in words. "I just want to make her proud, you know?"
"Not to sound like a dick or anything," the lavender-haired boy spoke hesitantly. "But she doesn't know you, Sana. And you don't know her." He didn't know the exact circumstances surrounding Suzume Takahashi's disappearance. No one knew if she'd fled the city voluntarily or if she'd been forced to leave by the Sakanos. Either way, she'd made a choice to leave her child in the hands of her tormentors who viewed Sana as nothing more than an object of power. As someone who saw the damage done to his friend's emotional state, he couldn't forgive the woman for that sin. "You don't need anyone's approval."
The solar girl shook her head instinctively, knowing he couldn't see it. She stood up to pace in front of the rock. She perfectly understood what he was saying. Sana didn't have anything to prove to these people, but this was about more than just approval or acceptance. She had an opportunity to learn about the little intricacies and aspects of herself that didn't line up with the Sakano bloodline.
