Trouble // l.h

Chapter 3.

Maps- The Front Bottoms

Lycia's POV:
(wow this is new)

Education is such an amazing concept, but school... not so much.

Why do I have to spend most of my time in a place where people look down on me and my whole future is based on a letter grade?

There aren't many people here who stand out. Of course there are cliques, the preps, the nerds, the potheads, the jocks. I don't fit into any of those categories though.

As I was going through these thoughts I bumped into somebody.

They were wearing a bright yellow vest that had ISS printed out in bold letters on the front and back.

I had to crane my neck upwards to see who was wearing it because of our close proximity... and wow okay this person is really tall.

Oh wow! Of course it's none other than the infamous Michael Clifford. Honestly, he's probably most known for the fights he gets in. I've also heard some rumors that he's a beast at guitar, but the world may never know.

"I'm sorry" he mumbled while looking at the ground.

"it's okay Michael, I wasn't exactly paying attention" I replied as kindly as I could. He looked like he was having a rough day.

"No it was totally my fault! I mean really, I should've watched where I was going. And even though I could do it now, I'd love to apologize at dinner tonight. 8 pm. Be ready, Ly. I'll text you when I'm on my way." he handed me a piece of paper before I could protest and all I could do is watch him walk away.

Why was Michael Clifford of all people giving me his number? How did he know my name? How did he know that my nickname is Ly?!?

As I turned the corner onto A Hall to get to English I hear a familiar voice arguing with someone in the ISS room.

"No Calum I don't think you understand.  The entire school is on his side. They're not even going to check the cameras! They're not even giving me a chance Cal. How am I supposed to keep going if I'm only headed towards more embarrassment?" Luke was talking so fast it took me a minute to process what he had said.

He doesn't think he should keep going. Luke Hemmings, the one person I cared about at one point, doesn't want to stay here.

And for once I knew how he felt. This shitty world has gotten me down so many times. I for one should know what it's like to have everyone against you. To feel like not being in this world is better than what's already happening. Having that mindset: we're all going to die at some point why not now, has almost ruined my life multiple times now. No one. Absolutely no one deserves to feel that way.

"Luke do you hear what you're saying? You have so many things going for you right now. You're videos are starting to get more views. Your grades are phenomenal. You've at least had a girlfriend in the past 6 months. All of which I have not done. This little mishap with Michael may 'define' you now, but when you've hit rock bottom the only way to go is up" Calum exasperatedly let out.

I don't think that I could've put it into better words.

Calum Hood is a fucking genius. 

From now on if I ever hear anyone say anything like that again I'll talk to them. I'll try to make them understand that it's going to get better. I know that it is so hard to understand and grasp, but I will stick with them through it all. I would tell Luke Hemmings that. But as for right now, in this moment, Luke Hemmings has Calum Hood. And he doesn't need my reassurance. He doesn't need me.

Tonight, I am going on a date with Michael Clifford. Tonight, my life is going to turn around. Tonight, I'm finally going to have a meaning.

8 o'clock can not come fast enough.

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JOURNAL:
FEBRUARY 13th, 2015:

Michael Clifford asked me out on a date today.

Luke Hemmings didn't want to be in this world today.

Calum Hood helped a friend stay in this world today.

Mr. Brownian gave a pop quiz in Spanish today.

I hated my body today, but I also vowed to drink water from now on today.

I felt bad about myself today.

I don't think life will be too hard, as of today.

I really hoping that this feeling will last after today.

I fell like I should title this poem Today. This poem should symbolize how I feel as of right now.

...

And as of right now. I'm feeling really great.

And I have plans.

-Lycia Toni Riggs

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wow okay I forgot about this book tbh. and this chapter was pretty crap. sorry.  btw you pronounce her name lee-sea-uhh. just in case you were wondering.