The Raven queen

Chapter 5

I did everything as Zinna said and declared on the fifth day through wise owl that I am pregnant. Asher was over the moon and wanted to bring me in the royal house for nice treatment and support but for my plan to work I had to refuse him. Since I had few miscarriages before he didn't argue with me.

I with the help of wise owl and few of my trusted maids made the nest more strongly and covered it with thick leaves to hide it from view. Foods and water are delivered to me everyday and today is the day I deliver my egg. Asher wanted to stay but I send him by saying him to pray for me. Now I am waiting for Zinna.

will she turn up ? she will not ditch me at such crucial moment right ? or worse what if she did all that just to take revenge from me ? or whatif she didn't succeeded and got caught in the act ? Anything can happen lord Saturn please help me. If I don't have a kid by the end of the day than I may not have a husband for rest of my life.  I stationed someone to keep an eye for Zinna but so much time has gone but no one came.  Asher will be here soon what will I do ?

" Where is she ? we can't delay any more . " said our royal physician. I knew I shouldn't have believed on her , she cheated me , that Vail bird has cheated me. If she doesn't come today than what will I do ? How will I face Asher ? will he ever trust me again ? wouldn't priest win the Battle easily ? what should I do ?

Just as I was thinking rubbish I heard a flapping sound and saw zinna coming through the back route. lord Saturn bless her she came. she sat on the nest and than put down the cloth bag and took out an egg from the bag and placed it nicely in my nest . 

" Here you go queen. " she said. I asked her " What took you that long time ? " she sat on the edge and told "  I had to wait for the mother to leave her nest so that I can bring it for you. I had to lay eggs and than bring them. " she said still trying hard to breath , she looks pale and sick from all the exercise and I was doubting her for nothing.

" You have another egg on that bag for whom that one is for ? " I asked her . she looked at her bag and told " Thats for another kingdom , seems like every kingdom has their own set of secrets. " Which kingdom can be facing such troubles ? None that I know about.

" Seems like you are doing quite a social service. " I told her , she laughed and told " Who knew right ? ....but don't get too sentimental that queen has promised me shelter for next two years. " of course how can she work without her own profit. " Like people say charity begins at home. " she said, something she can tell and that also so confidently.

I gave her our agreement papers and she told " Are you sure.... Everything that you are doing to keep your love is worth it ?...Asher is worth it ? " she asked and I really don't know the answer. " In love its better sometimes if you don't know the answer. Asher may change , may forget but I have to complete my duty right ? " I told her , she nodded and told " But dont forget the poem that I told you earlier. The poem of the poet Alexander vasiliu -

' Dear woman ,
if you want to heal your broken heart ,
always remind yourself.
Don't beg for love
Don't beg for love
Don't beg for love
Don't beg for love
Don't beg for love
love comes as a gift.

" Yes , I will remember " I told her , my doctor gave her some nutritious food and I offered her to stay for the night as she looked very tired from giving birth and all the flying she did today. But she refused and told "  Thanks for the offer but a mother is waiting for me you know. As the poet ' Robert Frost ' in his poem  ' Stopping by the woods on a snowy evening ' said -

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,   

But I have promises to keep,   

And miles to go before I sleep,   

And miles to go before I sleep.

" Alright than I wouldn't stop you . " I told her , she once again took her bag left. she quickly disappeared in the sky like nothing happened , everything is fine.
I thought I was the only one trying to cheat my husband to keep my post , looks like their are more like me. Their are more queens facing problems just like me , The Royal secrets that we have in our hearts are too heavy to carry .

sometimes I envy Zinna , the life she leads is so good, so free from all this responsibilities and duties , no thinking of raising your kids , no responsibilities of a queen but than its very lonely.  But whom am I kidding ? Am I not lonely ? Am I not doing this thing cause I am scared I may lose Asher if I don't have a kid ?

I looked at the egg , different emotions hit me differently , I felt bad for the mother , got scared at the thought of getting caught and my heart got filled with love thinking I will soon be a mother , soon someone will call me mom. I am very excited.

" Queen I have made the nest look like that you have just given birth....let me help you make our prince comfortable. " she said and I let her do the necessary things . I have new duties now , hope I can do them properly. I have to arrange people for the safety of the nest or the predators of the forest can attack my child and harm him or her.

" Let the king and his kingdom know Queen Shelley has given birth " the doctor has given instruction to the guards. Hope everything goes well. lord Saturn please help me with my plan.