𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐈𝐃

#.. FIFTEEN

waking up in gunil's embrace was something hyeongjun thought would never happen but it felt too amazing to be true. apparently gunil felt the exact same way.

"you kissed me yesterday - real or not real?" gunil knew it was true, based on the chuckle he let out. hyeongjun smiled and pulled gunil closer. it was so cold without the elder's body against his. "real."

gunil let out a content exhale as his arm started to rub small circles on hyeongjun's back. "how do i know that it's not just a prank?" the elder asked and pulled hyeongjun up, so they'd be on the same eye level.

hyeongjun smiled at him and put his hand on the other's cheek. without replying anything, he leaned forward again to capture gunil's lips in another soft kiss.

it felt too amazing to be true. in a situation full of fragility and mental instability hyeongjun found himself his source of comfort. a reason to live on.

gunil was able to say the exact same about hyeongjun. hyeongjun was the best thing that happened him after losing three of the most important people of his life.

gunil couldn't count the months he already was in love with hyeongjun. the younger was always someone he looked up to, yet something in his head always pushed him to a cynical mindset.

especially the belief his parents pushed onto him. gunil often couldn't differentiate between his own thoughts and his intrusive thoughts. or the voices in his head, that started to lessen over the last weeks.

thankfully, hyeongjun would guide him through his way of recovery. he wouldn't return back to normal fully, but with hyeongjun by his side, gunil was sure he would be able to handle it.

[...]

gunil couldn't go to work today. lying at the couch with a high fever wasn't something he really desired.

it's been a year since all the shit happened. his father's death, seungmin's death, his mother's death. but after that, it only got better.

jiseok and jungsu's wedding, his and hyeongjun's kiss. back at home, gunil took him out on a date.

they went ice skating at day, to an arcade in the evening and night they were walking around in the park, where gunil officially asked hyeongjun to be his boyfriend.

they didn't move in together yet, but it became quite often that hyeongjun just slept over at gunil's place.

he absolutely loved to steal gunil's shirts. they were big on him, as gunil was buffer than hyeongjun was, but due to hyeongjun being taller than the elder, his shirts were a little bit short on him. he looked adorable anyway.

hyeongjun was taking over the shop that day, so gunil was alone all the time. with tired eyes, he glanced at the television, not really paying attention to what was on it.

yet when they suddenly started talking about the news, gunil decided to listen. he did and shuddered.

"an unknown explosion inside the building of the faraday university destroyed the east side of the building.

this morning, passer-by's suddenly heard a loud bang and a few seconds later the east part collapsed. 

the chunks of the building also destroyed the bakery, and the small music store next door.

the amount of fatalities is unknown so far..."

gunil didn't listen anymore, his eyed widened as he sat up again, watching the scene unfold in front of him.

even though the video censored every pixel with blood, gunil was still able to recognize hyeongjun, who was filmed from afar.

they had fished him out of their shattered shop, he was entirely covered in blood, unconscious. hyeongjun was just one censored line but that was enough for gunil to sit up again, panic rising in his chest.