A Dream With 5SOS

Chapter 5

Authors Note
This is Amethyst's perspective.
And it can be a possible trigger to some. That's your trigger warning.

Amethyst's POV

"You're a bitch Amethyst. Come on Michael lets go fuck back at the flat!" I heard those words. I didn't think much of them.

I was busy making out with Calum.

I heard a car door slam and we pulled away from each other. His hands were on my hips and my hands were on his chest. I pulled away from him and bit my lip.

"So uhh how about that Nando's?" I stuttered as I tried to completely change the subject.

"When we get inside we're talking about this immediately!" Ashton said kinda like a pissed off soccer mom. He already has the hair for it.

We got seated. I was between Calum and Luke while Ashton was across from us.

"So tell us what you're feeling Amethyst." Ashton said.

"I don't want to talk about it." I said as I crossed my arms over my chest and looked down.

"Amethyst. This is gonna give us an example of your reckless behavior." He said.

I raised an eyebrow, now I'm pissed. "You really want to know what's wrong? What's caused me to kiss the Kiwi? Well I don't know. But you want to bring up my reckless behavior? What about Karma and Michael? Huh? They ran off so they could go fuck! I just. Ugh! I don't even know my own emotions right now! I just feel like shit really. That's how I feel all the time, I act like a bitch cause I'm forced to deal with how I feel. I just I don't know why I can't act like a fucking normal person. Karma hasn't left me since Dan. I-I wouldn't sleep in my own room for weeks cause I couldn't stand the silence. I can't stand myself I hate it. I hate that I can be so fucked up. I hate it. There's so much more no one knows about me. Nobody's going to ever know. It's going to stay that way. Forever." I said as Calum put his arm around my shoulder and I rested my head on his chest.

"Who's Dan?" Luke asked.

"He was a boyfriend of mine. I was with for two years. When I came down here for that one month that was after we broke up. It was almost forced. I miss him actually." I said.

"Why can't you get back with him? Does he have a girlfriend?" Ashton asked.

"No he's d-d-dead. He committed suicide. I found out after I came back." I said as I took a deep breath.

"Oh. I'm sorry Amethyst. You don't have to talk about him. But we still need to know why you kissed Calum." Luke said as he patted my thigh.

I nodded, "I did it to make her mad. I could've picked Luke or Ash but she had a crush on Cal. She knew how I felt about Michael."

"How did you feel about Michael?" Calum said.

"That I wanted to feel Michael." I said as I smiled and made them chuckle, "But seriously when I first met him on the side of the road and well fell on him. I was on my long board listening to Twenty One Pilots. I looked up, slipped and landed on a cute boy that was wearing the same thing as me and had the same hair. My long board got crushed by an 8 wheeler. But he was so cute as charming and funny and ugh. That ass-hat decided to sleep with my best friend. I swear my life is like a NeverShoutNever song. But every time I thought about him I got this happy feeling. I haven't felt that feeling in so long. It was a scary feeling." I sighed as I looked down at the ground.

"Wow." They all said silently.

"You know Michael felt the same way about you. When he got home he wouldn't stop talking about you. I called you carbon copy." Calum smiled and poked my side which caused me to giggle.