Arrange Marriage | Taehyung FF

Emotional Rollercoaster

Y/N POV

"Only because of you" He emphasized each word as if I meant a lot to him. 

And I would have believed him if I hadn't been betrayed before. Another man who said he loved me ended up calling me a slut, so naturally I have major trust issues now.

I nodded at him in response and tried to take a step back but ofcourse he didn't let me. With arched eyebrows, I looked at him and saw weariness in his eyes. It was not physical but emotional exhaustion.

"Taehyung?" I motioned at our intertwined hands so that he would let go but he couldn't care less about that.

His eyes stayed glued to mine, head bending down to join my forehead, "How long are you gonna drag this out?" He sounded hurt.

His face had a little seriousness on it like he was fed up with me.

"Wh-what do you mean?" I dared to say.

"That you don't have any feelings for me" He huffed, "Any before you deny it, let me remind you, how you keep letting me touch you, how you keep reacting to it" His free hand shifted to my face, grazing my cheek with the back of his knuckles, "how.....you feel flustered each time I get close to you"

I was still keeping him hanging about my feelings and I felt awful about it. But my emotions still weren't clear, so I couldn't give answers to him, once again!

I went silent, looking away from him, unsure what to say. 

And the very next moment, I heard him sigh and he let go of my hand. He walked back, putting some distance between us as if he had given up, given up on trying to convince me.

That expression on his face and that feeling scared the hell out of me. Scared that he might stop coming after me, that he may stop trying to win me back.

But isn't that what I wanted? For him to leave me alone, for him to move on? Then why is so scary to watch it happening in reality? Is it too late now?

Just the thought of not having him around me made my eyes glisten with fear. Maybe I have more feelings towards him than I would like to admit.

His legs move to walk away from me but like a reflex my hands hold his wrist, stopping him in his tracks.

My eyes close as I take a deep breath stabilizing my voice, "I am scared Taehyung" I let out with great difficulty as my hands unknowingly grip his wrist tightly.

"You are scared of me?" He asks with utter disbelief.

I shake my head as No since he clearly misunderstood. He takes my hand and turns me so that I am properly facing him now. His hand reaches under my chin and lifts my face, making me slowly open my eyes.

"Then what?" He asks as our eyes lock with each other.

"I am scared of letting myself love again" I sniff as a few tears escape my eyes, "Scared to trust again. I don't think I can take another heartbreak. I just can't" My voice breaks as my head hangs low, letting more tears flow out.

"Y/N" He holds my face with his big palms while my cheeks fit perfectly in them, "Look at me" he adds as he gently lifts my head again, "I would never hurt you" his eyes showed as much sincerity as they could.

"What do I have to do to make you trust me?" He asks as his hands pull my face closer.

"I don't know, Taehyung. I don't...." I break down being emotionally overwhelmed. Weighed down and suffocated by my own feelings. 

As tears flowed continuously down my cheeks, he instantly pulled me into a hug, scarfing my body with his arms. 

"It's okay, Y/N. We will figure it out. Together" He mumbles as his hand caresses the back of my head, "I am glad that you opened up to me"