Torn until I met you..

Letting go

Desire Sade brown

" so guys tell me what brings you in today?" Mrs west asked as she sat across from me and Que.

" six months ago I lost my son due to problems with my placenta, the doctor said their was insufficient blood flow he was stillborn" I said becoming emotional, Mrs.west reach over and grabbed the tissue to pass to me.

" I'm sorry" I said wiping my eyes as Que reached over and grabbed my hand squeezing it. I appreciated the comfort I found in that.

" I'm very sorry to hear that so I see the misfortune caused problems between you guys tell me about it Quadir" Mrs. West said fixing her glasses.

" after our baby passed away she became distant started hanging out with a cousin she never hung with before partying and drinking she lost her job and just simply became unreachable unattached" Que told her looking away from me removing our hands to wipe his eyes causing my heart to break I really hurt him.

" and what do you say to that desire?" She asked me as I cleared my throat " that I am sorry it's just at that moment I felt claustrophobic I needed air and space I felt alone even in a room full of people" I told her feeling just as stupid as it sounded coming out my mouth.

" so what do you think is the reason why you wanted space and felt claustrophobic?" Ms.west asked me as I looked away.

" I gotten tired of him crowding of me then Kori crowding over me it felt like fake love now she's pregnant the fucking Irony it's not fare she need to loose her fucking baby to" I said anger feeling the anger coming out

" oh and who is this Kori and what position did she play and all this anger I'm hearing" she asked me as I looked away not answering so she faced Que

" can you answer that for me Quadir?" She asked him as he sighed

" Kori and desire we're friends way before I came into the picture I heard they met very young and were close almost like sisters been with each other through everything then desire gotten pregnant and Kori was there shit she was there when I wasn't even shit even when we lost the baby she came rushing to the hospital then everything went to shit desire cousin Simone told her things and desire changed" I heard him say as I looked down at my fingers.

" and what things did your cousin say desire?" Mrs.west asked me

" baby I need you to participate we both agreed to do this" Que said to me pulling me close as I sighed

" Simone called me and told me that her friend was at Kori beauty bar and she over heard Kori talking about me saying she was tired of rushing over and being at my beckoned call and that I worked to much which is why I lost my baby" I told her feeling my eyes water my heart still hurts thinking about.

"So because of what you heard did you question your friend about what was said?" She asked me making me quiet again

" yes but at that moment I didn't wanna speak and we haven't spoken and it's best that why I just wanna heal from my son" I spoke not wanting to hear about Kori any more.

" yes I understand I just needed to get to the bottom of the situation so I know what areas to approach and ones I don't so" Mrs.west stop speaking as there was a knock on her door and she stood up to answer it

" Mrs.west your two o clock is here and it's one fifty nine" the assistant said as she answered okay before closing the door and coming to sit back down in front of us.

" so guys that hour went by fast but I love the pace it's going i have an assignment for the both of you, i want you both to write a letter to your son telling him how you felt in the moments of his life in then i want you to write a letter to each other apologizing for how you hurt each other and we will meet back up on Thursday this week same time" mrs.west said as we shook her hand and grabbed our coats to leave.