𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐓𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬

Picture Perfect

She's hiding in the bathroom
Under the covers
In the dark

Music playing in her ears
To drown out the
Arguments downstairs

Walls are too thin
Halls are filled with memories
Nothings changed

There's a girl on the walls
A smile painted on her face
Posed in her best dress

She's the perfect little girl
Next to her perfect brother
On a perfect beach

If you look close you'll see
It's all fake
She's trapped in a frame

And somehow that's the same girl
Who's looking at picture
Everything's changed

Her hair is shorter now
Colored blue or purple
It's hard to tell

And maybe she cut and colored it
Because her whole life she was told
"You look so much like your mother"

Another perfect little girl
Framed on the wall
One more expectation

And people understand her better now
And she understands herself
And it was nice

Here they don't understand the same
Here it's too hard to explain
Here they don't like change

But here she's closer
Closer to her home
That she misses so much

And oh at home she could be a kid
And oh there were no cameras
And oh three years is too long

But her parents say
They're not going back
It hurts

She tries and wants to live as
vividly in her head as she used too
But judgment and reality dims it

Her mom says this is
The easiest she's ever been
Mom doesn't know

This is the hardest life has been
She's better at hiding it now
Music and words hold her up

She wants to be a kid again
She wants to be a kid again
She wants to be a kid again

Not fully understood
Not picture perfect
Just free
November 2023