𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐒𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐌𝐲 𝐓𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬

In the Mind of a Teenage Girl

Always on a desperate search
For validation
Because how could I ever love myself
If not by someone else's invitation

Up in the late hours of the night
Pacing, pacing, pacing,
I'll swallow down what they say fixes it
It's just another medication

And maybe it's
my imagination
But I think I just made this
Another awkward situation

It's just an observation.

When I
Lose my motivation
All that I can think about
Is the time I'm wasting

I can't stop thinking about
The future I'll be facing
I can't imagine letting them down
It's just another expectation

I have to keep living
In this mold of their creation
Until I scream myself horse
In unbearable frustration

It's just my desperation.
March 2024