Debouchee | KTH

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Chapter 02

So Sad, extremely unfortunate is my fate which has always given me nothing but deception. After every dark night there is a miraculous morning but my dark night is still there as if the dark night doesn't want to pass from my life.

My slow steps were moving closer to the entrance of my school, every day i have to follow the same routine. I don't find it boring by any means, in fact I have become used to it now.

Anyway, everyone has a same story, everyone follows the same routine, the wheel of life revolves like this.

Whenever I have to go home, my stress doubles, I want to stay away from home, but like every day, even today I go there after finishing school.

It feels like time has passed so quickly while I was at school, Looks like I barely spent just an hour in school. Whereas at home it is the opposite, there I look at the clock every minute to see when the time will pass.

My misery is not leaving me. I used to take child birth control pills, which I always forgot because of my poor memory. Due to which my womb had to suffer directly twice.

So now I have decided, he has to obey me.

How much should I endure?He has destroyed everything, now there is nothing left, does i want to make myself infertile forever by continuously taking abortion pills?

During their consumption, I had difficulty in walking, my legs became numb and I guess i had caused a lot of damage to my womb.

If there was no compulsion, I would never have consumed them, I feel that those medicines are causing swelling in my body. I am afraid what if I cannot have a child in the future because of taking medicines so often?

He is enjoying his life, he neither cares nor realizes the pain that I have gone through. His looks are improving but he is taking away my beauty.

Sometimes I really feel like killing him.

I kept walking in the grassy field with my fist tight on my bag, staring at the ground. I never remain calm, I don't get any rest, all these constant thoughts are making me hollow.

After school, all the children were going to their homes, some by vehicle and some on foot whose houses were nearby. When my school is out, there is always traffic jam on the road, The entire area gets covered by a sudden crowd of children.

A black Mercedes stopped in front of my feet. Watching my sad face through the car window I had just moved my hand to open the car when the door opened on its own. Unbelievable, this never happened.

My heart beat so fast that I was about to have a seizure after seeing him, he was in the car, has he come to pick me up?

He doesn't usually come, I get peace at least for a while before I reach home, of course, because he doesn't show up till then, so I remain a little calm, but now I have to sit with him in the car too.

Did he not go to office today or did he come back early?

When I come to school in the morning, mostly he keeps sleeping in the bed, so it is difficult to guess whether he went to office today or not.

Not wanting to sit in the car I was just looking inside with wide eyes until his eyes moved away from his phone screen and met me.

In an instant my eyes started seeing the wheel of the car, I don't have the courage at all, I get scared when he meets my eyes, till date I have never looked into his eyes.

No smile on his face only feelings of peace are being expressed. Giving me a dark look as if I was a puzzle which he was trying to solve.

A feel of slight tightness in my chest while taking a breath only through my nose. I tried to open my lips to breathe, I am almost suffocated even though standing on the open path.