Debouchee | KTH

5.

Chapter 05

Three years later—

There is no possibility of getting back the past time, I am still suffering from the mistake I committed unknowingly due to my ignorance. How can anyone expect a little girl to be mature? ability to understand, I didn't have it at that time. I could not understand the intentions of my brother in law.

As long as he is with me, I feel he is mine. As soon as we part, neither he is mine nor I am his, we both are living like strangers in the same house.

I have immense sorrow but there is no one close to me to whom I can tell this sorrow. Will I spend my entire life as a subordinate for my sister's husband? No.

No matter how close I am to him, no matter how much I think about him, I get no happiness except sadness.

I don't want to leave this palace, I love this palace very much.

Years are passing but my patience is not running out, I am hopeful that happiness will come in my life too.

I want the past time back, I want that night to come again and this time I don't do the same mistake I did. I want my true smile again, I want my innocence back, I want my virginity back. And all this will never come back again? I'm so annoying.

The terrible truth of my life is that despite facing his torture for years, I am neither leaving him nor stopping him from coming closer to me.

My elder sister had gone to the wedding of a close friend of hers for 5 days, 6 years ago. Incident of that night haunts me every moment. In the absence of my sister, I had adultery with her husband.

We were quite frank from the beginning, both of us used to do some mischief too, but that night! Flirting turned into touching and touching turned into sexual needs.

We slept together continuously for three days, I was very happy, every feeling of Taehyung was like magic which was intoxicating me. I gave him permission to do everything, I had a trust in him that did not last long.

When 5 days passed, I started feeling guilty about all those sins, my sister returned, in front of me, taehyung distanced himself from me and hugged his wife. At that time I did not feel any difference between myself and the dustbin.

I was so stupid that I objected to him even though I had no right to do so. He told me in clear words that our relationship was only for physical pleasure and nothing more than that.

He clearly explained that I should not tell anyone whatever happened during the three days because it all happened as per my wish and he did not force anything.

I was not intelligent at that time, but he was mature, he understood that he was trapping a girl. Why didn't he say anything before having a relationship with me? because he only wanted to be physical and he had no feelings for me.

His eyes said one thing and his lips explained something else. Or was it just my illusion that I had found love for myself in his eyes? and that was false love.

I came to know the truth after 5 days, he ditch me, I went to my father's home, but, Fate brought us closer again after one year, it became my compulsion to live in his palace. I had no way out.

When I returned again, he had changed, I saw that he apologized to me for his harsh behavior. But did he do all this just because he wanted to have physical relations with me again? All this just because his wife was beginning to seem old to him?

I never refused to have sex with him, initially I felt disgusted but after some time I enjoyed being with him, this is also true. Do I still find love for myself in that man I consider a liar?

Now he also says that he will leave everything for me but he is a turncoat, I don't believe a single word of his.

My family has decided to get me married, they showed me photos of many boys. I have said yes to marriage, but I have also decided that I will marry his brother.

This decision of mine is absolutely fine, I am doing this neither out of any revenge nor out of jealousy. This is the only way to live in this palace that I thought was right to adopt. If I marry someone else, I will have to leave this palace too, which I do not want.

"where are you going dressed up so much?" Taehyung came and sat behind me on the bed with his legs spread, I had completed my makeup, all that was left was to apply lipstick on my lips.

"Don't you know? Today I am going to get engaged with your brother." I said, spreading the lipstick completely on my lips. Many of his attempts to get me pregnant failed, I took medicine every time to prevent pregnancy.

"When did all this happen? Why don't I have any information about this?" He doesn't know because no one told him, I am going to do a secret ring ceremony with his younger brother.

"You are not the only one who has the right to have a wife and children, I too have the right." I said, keeping the lipstick and make-up stuff in my expensive Gucci purse that taehyung had gifted me.

"After how long will the engagement take place?" He is really surprised, but I have only one way to get away from him, let another man come closer to me.

"In 2 hours. Go get ready to attend the engagement." i told him.

"You decided so quickly to leave me?" He is looking at me with big eyes. until I could not move away from him he thought that this relationship of his would last for the rest of his life, but Everything can't happen as per his wish, just as everything can't happen as per my wish. Today I am determined to free myself from this relationship.

"I have not taken a hasty decision, it has been years since I took a decision, today I have decided with all my might that I cannot maintain this ugly relationship with you anymore." I have said all this with such a heavy and sad heart, my heart is the witness that I want to cry right now but if I become weak then he will take advantage of me. He wants to keep both his wife and me as his personal stuff.

"What didn't I give you? What's there in my brother that I don't have?"

"Ask yourself where you made a mistake and what mistake you made. if you look for mistakes in others how will you understand your own mistakes?" While our conversation was going on, small footsteps were heard from the door.

Oh dear baby, A five year old child came rubbing his eyes, seeing his little smile makes my day happy, his father sat him in his lap.

I feel sad for that little child because his father is a bad person, he is a fraud, if he likes a woman he can even think of leaving his wife.

Taehyung has calmed down now, he cannot say anything in front of his son.

"You look so beautiful aunty." Little boy said, He is so happy to see me as if I am an angel descended from the sky.

"Thank you baby." I am expressing my love by kissing his all over his face.

Taehyung placed his hand on my hand which was lying on the bed and rubbed it, we both started looking at each other. Why doesn't he understand now that this is the end, he should be happy in his life and let me live in mine.

"I love you so much, don't leave me y/n." Taehyung said with tears in his eyes. His voice was very slow, based only on his breathing.

I pulled my hand and went out of the room, I will not fall under his influence this time. He is so despicable, he has no shame that he is the father of a child, yet how is he doing such nonsense?

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