Read Me Like An Open Book

Goodbye My Chemical Romance

March 25-26, 2013

Dear My Chemical Romance,

I remember when I first found out about you. It was mid-early in my 6th grade school year, I was at the basket-ball court at the park with my sister and my best friend, when I had told her that I loved Falling In Reverse. She told me to look up that group, and I did. It was past the time she needed to be home, so she said thats awesome and whats your favorite song by them and all that stuff, then, I asked her the question that brought me to you: What band should I try next? She turned around fast and smiled at me. "My Chemical Romance, My Chemical Romance, My Chemical Romance!" She said. "If you liked FIR you'll love MCR! Oh, Gotta go! Remember to look them up!" She said to me. Right when I got home I did.

I quickly went to YouTube and typed in your band's name. The first result I believe was Na Na Na, so I clicked on it. From that moment on I was in love. In love with you. In love with your message. In love with your music and songs. I was in love with you. I listened to a load more of your songs after that, and I reported back to her the next day. She was - need I say - really happy.

And form there, my journey continued. I discovered your other three albums, most of your music videos, and even started writing fan-fictions.Though, I locked them away after the first chapter because of writers blocks.

And then comes March 23, 2013.

Now I know that you guys . . . broke up . . . on the 22nd, but I didn't find out untill the 23rd. I remember it perfectly.

I was lying in my bed, about 9:30 at night, scrolling through pictures of you on Google Images, smiling at each one. Untill I came across a picture. A picture of a Tumblr post. Not from you guys. From a fan. I read trough it and dropped my IPod. Right on my nose. I stopped, and picked up my IPod in shock and read through it again. The date at the top said March, 23.

I broke out into tears after that. Relizing then that my boys had broke up.

I immediatly got on my laptop and logged onto Facebook, Wattpad, YouTube, and Twitter. Just for any confermation, and found it. That in-emotional four line paragraph on your site. Right there in grey and white.

I still can't believe it though. Four lines. Four fucking lines from the minds behind way more than the five albums you give yourselves credit for. Four fucking, emotionless, dead, "This is the end" lines.

Like most people, I was dissapointed by this. I - We - expected more emotion, more feels behind your goodbye note. And we didn't get that. I guess we just expected more from our boys.

This only lead us to believe that the label or company put up that note and not you guys. Which in turn lead us to believe that you guys got dropped by the record label, and were going to come back swinging soon. Which lead some of us to believe the theroy that the label or company wouldn't let you put somthing under the name of MCR and you guys were gonna come back with a new label and possiably a new name. I believed the latter.

I stayed up to 4:30 in the morning that dark Saturday night in a huge jumbled mess of emotions, tears, and blankets.

Then I started thinking about you guys. Even though I had been all night, i started to think about you, deeply.

I re-opened Wattpad and started up all of my old MCR fan-fictions, plus one new one. So four in total. I wrote untill 4:30 am rolled around and I couldn't stay up any longer.

I plugged my earbuds into my IPod before I went to sleep though, I went to the artists section and clicked on your name. And there they were, all the My Chem songs I had on my IPod. I press shuffle, shoved my earbuds into my ears, and layed down and cryed for a long time. But, after the third or fourth song played, I started to calm down, and I did. Because even though you guys are the ones who made me cry like a fucking baby, you were the ones who were able to make me stop. You. You always have been, and always will be.