It's gotten worse to the point where pretending you don't have any form of mental illness or medical condition isn't enough. It's gotten so bad, I've counted more calories than the hours of sleep I got. It's so bad, eating is like a unachievable goal It's so bad, I can't even think straight at anything. It's so bad, I don't think I'll make it to highschool.
What if I'm being delusional and me thinking I'm crazy makes me crazy? No one tries to believe me, and it sounds like people already know my situation before I explain it. If you used to be like me then are we all copies of each other that choose to live a different life, or do you just purley ASSUME.
Why work for a future that's not guaranteed? Why continue to be in a system that's outdated? Why lie to yourself again and again telling yourself that it's worth to overwork yourself for something that's going to overwork you automatically?
It's so bad I can't even overwork the work.
Why can't my moment of happiness happen with everyone else's? I love seeing my friends happy, but I dread the feeling of not remembering what that feels like. How do I create good habits? How do I stay consistent? How do I stay healthy? How do I all these things, when people think its pure laziness. Because of course, lazy people get anxious over the tasks they wanna do, but don't feel motivated to do it.
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