The Love That We Deserve

I am a Rich Man

Season14x04

It has been a long week and a half. Amelia has been diagnosed with a brain tumor that has been growing for a decade, doing last minute wedding planning, grandpa's funeral arrangements which also means extra dealings with the foundation. We have finally arrived back in Seattle and headed to the hospital. I lean on the car door, as questions circle my mind, and stare at nina and Jackson from my seat. Jackson turn to me and looks back at me confused. "What?"

"Is it bad that I haven't cried yet?" I look down and start to play with my oversized black coat.

"No, well I don't know. I mean my relationship with grandpa was different than yours. But it could be that your mind hasn't fully processed it?" He puts his hand on mine when it starts to pick at my black pantyhose. "Stop, bella your gonna rip it."

"I feel bad that I haven't cried. I mean I miss him, and I know he wasn't the easiest person to love, he was a butt most of the times, but he helped me so much and he was the only person outside of family to believe in me before he became family." I start to play with the leather of my knee high boots. Jackson holds my hands and he starts to fiddle with my rings that he gave me so I wouldn't get my anxiety ticks. Obviously they aren't working. "I feel like a bad person."

"Oh baby, you are far from a bad person." I look up at nina. "It's natural what your going through. Your in denial. And that's ok, you'll get through this. We are here for you when ever you need us." I smile at her and grab the glitter pen that Jackson gave me. I move in my seat so that I can lean my head on his shoulder as I draw little hearts on his hand.

"I love you guys."

"We love you too."

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When we walk into the hospital tío was there to greet us. I instantly run up to him and pull him into a hug. "I don't understand how you can run in those high heeled shoes." He laughs. But it stops when I don't respond. He kisses my head and moves my hair out of my face. "Are you ok, sweetheart?"

"No." I look up at him. "But I will be."

He nods and looks at the other two. "How was the flight?

"Fine." Nina softly says.

"Ah. And the service?" He asks as I move myself to the side so I can see them.

"It was tasteful." Nina answered as I nodded in agreement.

"It was a bunch of kiss-asses sniffing around for money, telling stories about how Harper Avery was nice and decent and.." Jackson scoffs. "respected women." I hesitantly nod again."

"All right, so, we'll have a family supper and do our own thing and talk about the real Harper Avery. Right now I need to change." She pats Jackson's arm and we switch men. Jackson pulls me into his side. "Want to help me?" She looks at Tio as they begin to walk off.

"Catherine Avery?" Someone shouts and we all look to our lefts when a man comes up to us.

"Thomas Koracick?!" They both laugh and give each other a hug and he plants a kiss on her cheek.

"Ohh! How is it that I'm aging and you aren't?" I look up at Jackson confused and grab on to his side a little more.

"Oh, shut up." She lets out a girly giggle which took me by surprise. I look as tio clears his throat. Nina remembers where she. "Uh, you've met my husband, Richard Webber."