Sweet Kisses - Satosugu

Lonely.

Pov: Satoru

I woke up in the morning to see Suguru gone. He probably had to go to work early. I walk over to the kitchen to see a note along with a cup of coffee.

The note reads, "Sorry I wasn't able to make breakfast for you Satoru, I did make you some coffee though, just how you like it. Ill be coming home a little bit later tonight. If you need anything call me. Love, Suguru." 

It made me sad to know he was working longer today. His job is like that. Suguru really does care about his life more than I do. I usually just go with the flow. 

I sip my coffee and read a book for about 30 minutes before I go take a shower. I relax as I feel the warm water slowly fall down my back. I sit in the shower for about 20 more minutes before getting out. I dry my hair, wash my face, put some clothes on, then do some work on the couch. 

I cant sit on the couch without remembering what Suguru did to me yesterday. Has he been doing that every time I fall asleep? I get butterflies just thinking about it. I remember how soft and delicate his lips and fingers were. I cant help but want him to do that to me when I'm "awake". I want him to do that all the time. Why? I really don't know. I get distracted from my work and begin to search about my feelings for answers. Ive never been interested in men before. And I'm still not. Its only him. He is the only guy who could ever make me feel this way. 

I don't get much work done because of how my brain has been occupied with thoughts of my best "friend". I check the time. I did wake up late today, we both have a day off from classes but Suguru still had to work. I wish I could spend more time with him. We usually only had 2 days a week where we were both off. And sometimes one of us would get called into work. I really wanted to see him. It was 4pm already. It made sense since I did wake up really late today. Suguru usually gets off around 5pm. But since he's working later he might come home anytime later than that. It made me sad not being able to see him today. If I fall asleep before he gets back I would have a better chance of getting him to kiss me. It felt silly to think about, but I honestly didn't care.

Pov: Suguru

I got off of work at 7:30 today. I felt bad for Satoru. He must have been lonely today. Ill make it up to him when I get home.

 I pull into the parking lot and make my way into the building. I carefully and slowly open the door to our dorm. If Satoru was sleeping I wouldn't want him to wake up. I gently lock the door and quietly remove my shoes before placing them on a mat beside the door. I see Satoru laying on the couch without a blanket like always.

 I quietly take my blanket from my room and walk back over into our living space. I gently lay the blanket on top of him and sit next to him. I softly stroke his hair. Twirling it in my fingers, gently massaging his scalp. I move my hand to his face. Taking his jaw in my hand and softly caressing his cheek. I move the hair away from his face and lean down to kiss him on his forehead. I stare at him for a couple more minutes before I turn of the light and walk over to my room. 

I had planned to lounge around the house before going to sleep, but since Satoru is sleeping I decided not to. I get in my bed and let my body relax. I think about Satoru. I really love him. I don't think he understands how much I really do though. I don't plan on telling him myself though. I could never risk ruining our friendship over something so dumb. I honestly don't know what I would to without him.

Pov: Satoru

I lay on the sofa with lots of blush spread across my face and lots of butterflies in my stomach. It felt so nice feeling him give me so much affection. I want more. 

He gets up after a while and goes back to his room. I think about him and I. I want to lay down with him and have him show the same affection to me. But more. I don't just want him to, I need him to. 

What am I even thinking...? This isn't right is it? I mean he's my best friend. What am I gonna do if he is just showing me love in a platonic way? Is he trying to play with my feelings? I honestly don't know. I decide to talk to him.

I stand up and walk over to his room. I stand in the door way. I cant see inside his room because its so dark, but im sure he can see me. 

"Suguru..."

"Satoru?"

He asks me in the dark. I decide not to turn on his light, and I walk over towards his bed. My eyes make it easy to see well in the dark, although it can overwhelm me sometimes. 

"Suguru...how was your day?" I ask him, he cant see me, but if he could, hed be able to see how nervous I am. 

"It was okay. Pretty busy today. I'm sorry for leaving you alone here Satoru. I promise ill make it up to you. What did you do today?" he says sweetly. 

I love the way he says my name. He says my name better than anyone else ever could. It drives me insane, but in a good way. I sit down next to him on the bed. 

"I woke up pretty late, but I drank the coffee and read your sweet note. I took a shower, did some work, and slept. It was a pretty ok day." I say quietly. He is very close to me. Giving my heart an even tighter squeeze. I try to ignore it, but it honestly isnt possible. 

"You had a nice day without me huh?" he tells me in a sarcastic way. 

"No, I actually didn't." I say, unusual from what I would have normally replied with, but at least I'm telling the truth. 

"No? What did you miss me that much?" He say slightly chuckling.

"I really did. It felt empty without you here. I missed you." I say. I can feel my cheeks reddening. Why did I say that? He going to think Im a weirdo. 

"Satoru."

"Yes?"

He places his hand on my face, cupping my cheek. At this point I am red as a tomato. My eyes widen. He has never ever done this to me. Well, at least when I am awake. It makes my stomach do cartwheels. I melt into his touch, my body feels light. It feels nice.

"Suguru..?" I ask, practically whispering. 

He laughs softly and lets go of my cheek. 

"I just wanted to know where you were. I cant see in the dark like you can y'know." He says while smiling. 

I smile back, even though I know he cant see me. 

"Sure, if you say so."