The Sub

Chapter 25

Christmas with Luke was great. My family loves him, or so it seems. Luke and Jake even seem to get along, which surprised me. I know they were nice to one another at Thanksgiving, but this didn't seem as tense. Luke gave me a beautiful charm bracelet and I ended up giving him a watch.

I wish I didn't think that seemed so cliche and robotic. I do not know what has happened to me. I was so optimistic in the start of this relationship. I had hopes and I had plans and worried and now it's more like a part time job.

Luke hasn't even texted me since Christmas Day. I have no idea why, usually he likes to stay in contact. Honestly I'm starting to feel this fall apart. The beginning was so lust driven, and so much passion. Nothing else though. I know I'm an over thinker and that I tend to over analyze everything, but this has driven me crazy.

I try texting him, but I get no response even hours after. I started a Tumblr after break as well, and now I understand that Fifty Shades of Grey and the BDSM community are complete different. I now know that I was driven by hormones and misconception of a healthy relationship.

BDSM is a kink. Not control. Christian Grey had psychological problems and was misguided by the woman who introduced him. By the end of the series I believe Ana changed him.

I however did not change Luke. Luke was into kinks, he wasn't looking for a relationship. He wasn't asking for NDA, just an agreement, he wanted sex. I gave him sex and then convinced him to enter a relationship with me. That is what I accomplished. I went into this blind until I read his agreement. The only thing remotely similar to the stupid book was when we were at the event for his dad's company and he spanked me without my permission as I originally signed that I had to ask for it.

After that I shut down some. I've questioned everything about Luke and I. That needs to end. I know this is right. Why wouldn't it be? We're happy, right? Am I happy? I believe I am. Maybe I just miss Luke?

Am I happy?

That question single handily bothers me the rest of the night until I get a phone call from Luke. It's nearly one in the morning when I hear my phone ring.

"Hello?" I answer confused to why Luke is calling me so late.

"Jacey," Luke says quickly sounding surprised I picked up. Something's wrong.

"Luke, why are you calling me so late?"

"I want to see you. Leave your parents a note saying you'll be back in five days days. I'll be there in fifteen minutes. I already packed you some clothes. Just grab your essentials from your room." He tells me. I hear a door shut and a car start. He's really coming to get me.

"Luke, my parents are going to freak out."

"Baby, you're with me. Leave that on the note and it'll be okay. They're leaving for a trip tomorrow. They'll be gone for two weeks. It'll all be okay."

"But-"

"But you're scared of having a fun time. Yeah, yeah. Come on baby. I'm already half way there. Get your stuff together. See you in a bit," he hangs up.

I get out of bed and slide a comfortable pair of sweatpants on. I grab a sports bag throwing a hairbrush, my toothbrush, some makeup, and an extra sweater. On the way out I grab my phone and it's charger tossing it in my purse. The stairs are oddly quiet as I walk down them, normally they'd make noise.

Going away for the weekend. I'm with Luke, don't worry!
Love you both!

As I'm finishing the note I see Luke's Audi pull up. I walk out closing the door slowly, then get in the car with Luke.