Pit box ~Larry Stylinson~

Chapter 9

This is more a Carlando chapter :)

Charles
We're having a party at Lando and Daniel's hotel room, all the drivers came and now we're watching some f1 videos on the tv. Lando and Carlos seem to made it up again, because Carlos' arm is around Lando's shoulder and Lando leans happily against him.

"Oh! We should definitely watch some crashes back!" Louis says. "Sounds like a plan" his Max answers. "Why not?" Daniel grabs the remote control and looks on YouTube for a video.

We're just watching the crashes happily until in the left bottom of the screen: Tuscan Grand Prix, stands. I immediately look at Carlos and I see some panic form in his eyes, he wraps his arm back and start to fiddle with his fingers while he anxiously watches the crash.

With panic in his eyes he watches the tv screen. "I remember this! It was a heavy one wasn't it Carlos?" Lance Stroll, the teammate of Sebastian Vettel, asks. The only thing Carlos can do is nod slowly, his eyes are still glued on the screen as he watches the replay of the crash.

"I- um- gonna go outside for a while" Carlos mumbles, he stands up and walks away, all the drivers look confused at each other. "Have I said something wrong?" Lance asks. "Ah don't worry guys, he probably just needs some fresh air, I'll take a look" I say fast. I stand up and the others resume watching the video.

Carlos
What was this for stupid idea? I should have know that the crash came. I feel a panic attack coming. It's dark outside, but the air is warm, I sit down against a wall from the hotel, opposite me is a small lake, luckily no one's outside anymore.

I close my eyes and lean my head against the wall, trying to get my breathing regular. "Carlos" I hear then. I look up, trough my blurry vision from the tears in my eyes I can see Charles. He sits down next to me and I feel his arm around my shoulder.

"It's okay Carlos, you're safe here, you're safe. Try to breath a bit more regular, okay? Slowly in and out." My hands are shaking and when I take a deep breath a kind of sob comes out of my throat.

"Good, like that yeah, keep breathing like that Car" I continue the shaky breathing. "Do I need to get Lando?" I shake my head. "Carlos..." I look in Charles' eyes, they are full of worry.

"You really need to talk with Lando about this, he's the only one who can really help you, he loves you man." I sight. "I really don't want him to be worried about me" I say with a soft voice. "Car, he's worried now because he notices something is wrong but you don't tell him what." I sight again. "Okay then."

Charles walks back towards the hotel, I look up to the sky and try to swallow my tears away. He's gonna find out. Lando's gonna find out my deepest secret.

Lando
I'm just sitting there, I'm really, really worried about Carlos. Why did he just walked away? And I don't believe Charles either, fuck, what is wrong and why is no one telling me it?

After a few minutes Charles comes back, he sits down next to me. "Carlos wants to talk to you" he whispers in my ear, I look confused at him. "What- why?" "Just go Lando, it's serious." I look in Charles' eyes and see they're serious, so I stand up. "I'm gonna catch some fresh air too" I mumble, and then I walk towards the door.

When I'm outside the hotel room I run to the stairs, I don't have time to wait for the lift. If Charles says it's serious, it's really serious. Outside I'm looking for Carlos, I can't find him at first but then I hear some muffled sobs. I walk around the corner and see Carlos sitting down the wall with his head hidden in his hands, his shoulders are shaking. "Oh Carlos..." I say soft. I sit down next to him and wrap my arm around his shoulder, he looks up.

"I'm so sorry" he whispers. "Hey, it's okay darling, it's okay, you don't have to be sorry, calm down a bit for me, okay?" I hold Carlos while he's crying and try to calm him down a bit.

After a few minutes Carlos calmed down a bit, he sights shakily. "D-did Charles told you?" He asks, I shake my head. "No, he just said I needed to go towards you to talk and that it was serious. Carlos, what's going on?" I ask, the worry is clearly audible in my voice now. Carlos looks at me and takes a deep breath, and then he starts to talk...

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It's like fifteen minutes later, I excused Carlos and myself from the party and we're laying in his hotel room in his bed. Carlos' head is resting on my chest and I'm slowly stroking trough his hair. Usually it's the other way around, but after Carlos told me everything I thought he should get some comfort.

"Car" I say then. "Mhm?" "Can you promise me you'll tell it when you're gonna have a panic attack?" Carlos looks up at me and smiles sleepy. "Yes, I can promise that." It's silent for a moment. "You know querido..." he starts. "It felt really good to talk with you about it." I smile. "And I'm so proud of you for telling me, 'cause now I can help you, and we're going trough this together okay? If you need comfort or a distraction or something else you can just come to me, okay?" Carlos nods. "Okay."

The door opens, Charles stands there. "Hi" he says. "I just wanted to ask if Carlos is okay?" Carlos lifts his head and smiles at Charles. "I am fine!" He says. "Okay, I am glad, oh, and I'm sleeping at the hotel room of Max and Louis tonight, Car you have a key cart right?" Carlos hums as reply. "Okay, good night guys." "Night Charles" I say, he walks out of the room and closes the door. "Are you tired?" I ask Carlos, he nods. "We're gonna sleep then."

Carlos and I change ourselves for bed and lay down in Carlos' double bed. And how Carlos was the "little spoon" a few moments ago, I'm laying in his arms now. "I love you, carinõ" he says, I smile. "I love you too Carlos." He kisses my shoulder. "Thank you for being here for me" he whispers. "I'll always be here for you love."