shameless killers | billie eilish

[50] livin' free

billie o'connell
one year later

"i'll cut your fucking neck dude, you're always late on pays" i groan to the guy standing at my car window.

"i know. this is the last time, i promise i'll pay you back every cent" he worryingly says. "you know how much trouble i get off meek for this shit man?" i say. "ight okay! i'll have it all by friday" he says. i suck my teeth in frustration and drive away.

the only reason im letting this dude off is because if i keep arguing with him everytime i will just kill him so if he doesn't have it by friday then, ill see what happens.

i drive back home and go inside. "hi baby" arianna smiles. "hi cutie" i say and kiss her forehead. "how was your day?" she asks.

"okay, i went and picked up gus and we went and got food then chilled at his place with a couple of the guys" i say. arianna doesn't know what i do now, she thinks i don't do anything.

"you need to find a job billie" she whines. "i know, i will soon" i say. "okay, well i have work tomorrow so im going to bed" she says.

"okay, love you baby" i smile, "love you too" i give her a kiss before she heads off to our bedroom. she's so cute.

i head to the kitchen and make myself a bowl of fruit and get a bottle of water. i head to the couch and sit down, i begin to eat my food whilst scrolling through my phone. once i finish my food i grab my lighter and a pre-roll i had made earlier in the day and sit out in the backyard. 

i love having time to myself, i love coming home from work, eating fruit, sitting in the yard, smoking a j and listening to the world pass by. its so peaceful and resetting, it resets my mind and clears it before going to bed.

i put my smoke out and sit it in the ashtray, i lock everything up and grab a bottle of water for me and one for arianna before turning off all the lights and heading to the bedroom. i strip off my clothes and throw a robe on. i go into our bathroom and do my skincare and brush my teeth, i then take my robe off and get comfortable in bed. i usually wake arianna when i get into bed but she usually just turns over and cuddles into me, which she just did. i shut my eyes and hope to fall asleep.

it feels good to be free.

2 weeks later

"hi momma" i smile at my mom as i walk through to the kitchen, yes, we still live with my parents but we're only 19, we didn't get to finish school, we never had stable jobs, we fucked up our lives so we're still trying to figure out what to do. 

"morning darling. I'm making some pancakes, do you and ari want some?" she asks, "yes please" i smile. "okay, go tell ari they're ready" she says. i turn around and head back to our room.

i gently wake arianna, "wake up pretty, mamma made pancakes" i softly say. arianna groans and yawns before properly waking up. "huh?" she says. "maggie made pancakes" i say. "oo yay!" she happily says. arianna gets out of bed and heads to the kitchen where she's greeted by my mom and her special pancakes.

we eat our breakfast and head back through to our room. as i'm chilling, watching tv and arianna is getting ready for work finneas texts me asking to come through to his room. i get up off of bed and go through to his room. finneas and claudia have been having problems recently so he's moved back in just to give her some space. 

"what's up?" i say as i walk into his room. "i need to tell you something and you can't tell anyone" he says. i quickly turn serious and sit on his bed. "okay.. what is it?" i ask. he unlocks his phone and shows me a message from claudia.

"oh my god... oh my god!" my face lights up, "I'm going to be an auntie!" i excitedly say. "sh! be quiet!" finneas says as he covers my mouth. "its not a good thing billie" he says. "why?" i question. 

"one, we're having really bad problems right now, two we're still so young, three we're not financially stable enough for a child and four we both don't want one!" he explains. "oh, okay... well can claudia not get an abortion?" i question. "nope. she already told her mom and her mom is extremely against abortion so we have to keep it" he says.

"that's stupid. its her body therefor its her choice" i say. "i know. i just don't know how to tell mom and dad. I'm sure they'll be fine with it but they need a break. they had to deal with you throughout high school, then took in arianna, then you two decided to become serial killers and if its not obvious all of that took a serious mental toll on both of them. they need a break, they don't need another problem" he explains.

he's right, i didn't even realise that everything bad ive done in my life has also effected my family. obviously i knew it did but ive always been so self-centred that i never realised. "okay, so lets hide it from them for as long as we can. you and claudia have your own house anyways so it'll be easy until the last few months" i suggest. "you know i hate lying to them billie" he says. "i know but for their sake, just do it. i'm always here for you finneas, i'll stick by your side through this and support you as much as i can, same goes for claudia. i am your sister" i say, trying to comfort him. "thank you billie, i tell you what I'm going to do when claudia and i come to an agreement. i love you" he says. "i love you too finny" i smile and leave his room.

here's another bump in the road, but its okay. we'll get through it. this is my time to show that i am the best, most supportive, loving and caring little sister ever! i also think I'm going to make a great auntie.

anyways... i go back into my room and see arianna all pretty and ready for work. "i need to leave, bye baby" she says and kisses me. "bye, i love you" i say. "i love you too" she smiles and then leaves.

life is good man.

(a/n):

hey...... sorry for such a LONG wait for another chapter but here it is! it's very boring but at least finneas is having a baby! the next few chapters will just be day to day life but there will be huge time skips so i can get to the juicy parts!

love ya !